Yah, so I'm really unhappy with this supposed friend of mine. She's kind of a bully and we got into a fight. I called her on the phone to catch up and gab. She just wanted to talk about a subject that bugged me (no details - I'll simply say its something I can't talk about). So I told her I didn't want to talk about it and she kept pressing me because it was the only thing she was interested in. That alone got me upset, like she was using me. No matter what I said, she only wanted to talk about this subject that bugged me. Finally, I got pissed off and said something mean to her. At that point she threatened to hang up. And to tell you the truth that made me madder. I mean, this supposed friend has acted bizzarely selfish before. Instead of recognizing how she was treating me like an insensitive asshole, she only focused on the mean thing I said. So I told her if she hung up on me we were through - friendship over. I really can't tolerate bullying or people who think only about themselves. I'm not the best person at give and take, but I know when a person is taking advantage of me. I was fully prepared to let the friendship go if she followed through with her threat. It didn't take me long to decide she was someone I could do without. And then she hung up on me. Can you believe that? Like our friendship didn't matter to her! Which only confirmed my feelings about her and our supposed friendship. Anyway, my husband wants me to forget the whole incident and go back to being friends with her. We travel in the same social circles and up until this incident we were part of the same crowd. But honestly, I can no longer be a real friend to this woman. She crossed the line and she just didn't care. The last time I saw her in public, I told her I didn't want to fight with her and that I was sorry about the mean thing I said. Then she apologized for behaving badly and said she also didn't want to fight with me. I said, "Apology accepted" but nothing more. She also had nothing to add. Funny, now that I think about it, she should have buried the hatchet by saying she accepted my apology. But I suppose she's also one of those people who can't let a grudge go. So at that point I walked away from her. I mean it, I really do not want to be friends with this person. I'll fake it if I have to for the sake of my husband. But nobody walks all over me and stays a real friend. And you know, if she was really worthy of my friendship she would pursue it with a little more effort. The fact that she so easily let it go confirms in my mind that she never was a true friend. I wish people weren't such phoney baloneys. If I knew before how little our friendship meant to her, I wouldn't have bent over backwards to forgive the other times she was incredibly selfish and a bully (three other times - wow!) So the kicker to all this came over the weekend. I'm so glad I found this safe place to vent. Her 17-year old daughter who is good friends with my own daughter used to at least treat me cordially. We weren't exactly friendly but she never behaved badly. This past weekend I'm standing at an afternoon social talking to a friend who is a good friend of her mother (my ex-friend). The girl comes right up to us in the middle of our conversation, gives my friend a warm welcome and starts talking to her leaving me completely out of their conversation. The whole time she never looks my way or even acknowledges my presence by saying hello! Who in the hell acts like that??? What an asshole and what an asshole mother!!! You know, people like that don't even realize how much misery they cause themselves. They're so busy trying to mess with other people, they're consumed with hateful gossip and thoughts of vengeance. But in the end, they're the ones who actually suffer. Because the world has a way of bringing back to you what you se

So I parlayed my gig at The Spewker into a freelance writing job at Examiner.com. My focus is local and visiting celebrities in Baltimore, celebrity news, events, and celebrity interviews. I recently attended the NYC premiere of Cadillac Records and wrote a pretty decent article at Baltimore Celebrity Examiner. There is also a pretty cool video. The next thing I am focusing on is getting one on one interviews with big celebrities. So far, I have met Akon, Ann Quasman, Brad Blanks, Deborah Koons Garcia, and Ira Glass in person and interviewed Dan Lauria (from The Wonder Years) by telephone. I still feel like I'm not getting enough access, but if I belonged to a bigger organization it would open doors. Ah well. In the meantime I am building a (hopefully good) reputation. In that regard, feedback is so very important. Please stop by my new page at Baltimore Celebrity Examiner and read and comment on my articles. Your feedback means a lot to me and will help me to reach my professional goals much faster. Peace out!

Have you ever watched and promoted someone's lame video just by chance because it illustrated the point you wanted to make? Well, that's what happened to me. I like to hang out on twitter. In fact, I'm there almost every day. Last week, I came across this article about Facebook v. twitter and why one may kill off the other. The guy who claimed it might happen even went so far as to make his own video. So I figured, why not? I'll post the silly video on my own blog (not The Spewker - I actually pen another blog that's still in its infancy and not ready to debut), voicing disagreement for my own article. Lo and behold, tonight I'm watching Jimmy Fallon and William Shatner on Conan - Fallon is going to take over in '09, it's official - when who should Conan introduce but none other than the twitter video guy! That's right. Gary Vay*ner*chuk. Don't ask me why he makes such a big deal about pronouncing his last name. He just does. There he is with Conan at NBC studios in NY, the guy whose lame video I trashed in my article, only he's no expert on social media. Figures. That explains why the video was so lame. Yes, he is actually a wine guru. You heard me. Gary Vaynerchuk has an act getting celebrities drunk on cheap wine while he jokes around and smells armpits. Kind of like that Molly Shannon gig on SNL when she played cheerleader buffoon, Mary Katherine Gallagher, only Vaynerchuk smells other people's armpits (Conan's to be precise). He also brags about knowing the smell of sheep butt. I had to admit, the guy was pretty funny. No really, he's a bona fide Internet celebrity. After Googling him, I found out he gets over 25K page views per vlog episode. That's pretty high ratings for the Internet. Then again, Vaynerchuk has to be funny. His voice is in the low soprano range and next to Conan, he looks like a dwarf.

I know this sounds really lame, but I need a little help from my friends. I have this really good friend, Billy, who likes to comment on my blog. This is great and I love his comments, but for some reason, hardly anyone else wants to chime in. So, essentially what I get is a whole bunch of comments from Billy and practically nothing from anyone else. I don't want to tell Billy to stop leaving comments, because I really love him and all his support, but I don't want my blog to look ridiculous either. It's wending the 9 month mark, so you'd think I'd be hooked up with more regular people by now, but I'm not. Sigh. Anyhoo, I decided to try SoundClick because it's off the beaten path for social networks. I need to expand my horizons. It seems like I keep coming across the same people in all the networks I join, but SoundClick looks different. I am truly interested in making new friends, listening to new stuff, promoting stuff if I like it, etc. etc. So, what to do about the comment section of my blog? Leave it be? Take the widget off my blog so I don't die from embarassment. Pay other people to leave comments? Help!

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