I believe in my dreams. I just had 3dreams telling me that my Chocolat's brother has found him and that he's bringing him back to me. Just because I haven't heard from him doesn't mean that he hasn't found them. It just proves that his laptop is dead and he dint bring his charger. Is it stupid of me to want to go with my sister to help find him? I mean, how would we even go about it? I don't even know how his brother is looking for him. And without being able to contact his brother, how am I even supposed to find HIM?? >..<...mann..I guess I can't go unless I find some way to get in contact with his brother. It's strange...the things you'll do for someone you love.

What do you do when the person you love and his godsister is practically being held hostage states away by his mother's friend?...meaning that she is just a minion in this scheme. Your love's beloved mother is the one who's actually behind this. You can't call the cops because it'll lead to his mom...and he wouldn't want that to happen...but...would you do it anyway?...and his brother went out to that state to get him...but he mistakenly fell asleep while he was there...so they disappeared. What do you do now? The moment you thought you had a hold of him...he goes disappearing again..meaning that they found out that they were going to escape and left. What do you do? Where do you look?? >.<...

If you love someone...and you've been hinting at it for awhile..and then, one day, you just say it to them...and they don't answer...How long would you give them to answer? How long are you willing to wait for this person?...and uhmm...they're not talking to you >.< How long would you wait for them to answer? and would you stay single that whole time? What would you do while you're waiting? Would call everyday eventhough they reject your call? Send the person letters really often? What? What would you do?

I was online...then Marilyn was all "email him!! email him!!" and I was all "hehehe...I know, I know...I'm talking to him on aim^-^" and she was all "he's signed on??!!" and yea...it was my Chocolat!!!^-^ I was all happy...cuz I knew it was him.....I could feel the Chocolatyness of him xD... then...my other dream, the only part I really care about...is where I turned to look at my lil cousin, Volet...and she had the stars in her eyes...it was so beautiful. So, I turned to the sky...and it was the brightest...biggest star I've ever seen...and I continued to stare at it...and other stars started appearing. It was cool...we were witnessing the birth of all those stars.

Could it be....that it was him all along...tricking me.....*feels sick* >.<...seriously...the thought of it makes me nauseous. but...there is that possibility. I really believe that the person I'm talking to is him. But why...Why did he do this?? and why is he doing this to me now?...The things he said yesterday...they were so cold....it seriously was painful to have to read those things...I don't know...but if he really did trick me...it doesn't matter. It doesn't change the fact that I love him. But why...why is he saying that he's worthless and that he's his brother??....He makes it seem asthough something has changed about him...and that he never wants to go back.... He's lying to me....I hate it. We were supposed to always be completely honest with eachother. Why...Why is this happening to me?? This person is making me start to lose sight of who I know my Chocolat is...But no, I won't let him. Talking to him...it's made me think that...if he really has changed...whether i'd still love him or not...but I refuse to think like that anymore. I know that I love him...and that he is still who he is. He is the person I love...and that will never change.