(Pre Chorus)
Take a min sit down
Can I talk to them
Its like my head in the clouds
Rain on my heart for him
Thunder pain come around
But no spark to him
Why my brain clouded with sounds
Guilt won't depart from him
Verse I:
I say him like its third person
Knowing its me
Spot light on my whole life's purpose
What am I doing
Why search it
What am I proving
Why work
If my thoughts imperfect
This is my journal im speaking
My hurdles gotta reveal my demons
The only way to defeat it
Is to deplete myself less pride more Jesus
Invisible you can't see it
Spiritual faith is needed
Humility makes leaders
Greater is he that is in me
Than the eyes of my critics
That all judge but no degree
Everybody trying to be seen
Idols and little g's
Self worship
Like their crystal clean
Knowing we all dirt cheap
But what hurts me
The fact that my life is not enough
And unworthy
(Pre-chorus)
Hook
This is my Journal
Im Speaking
My Hurdles
Got to reveal my demons
Verse II:
Why is the web I weave so tangled
Sowing what I reap
Through the sheets
My thoughts hang low
Handcuffed to that same hold
Strong arming my soul
Through the passion
I can't say no
So I travel down that same road
Same door that I can't close
Same bed I lay my head
But don't sleep on
Same window I sneak out
When heats on
Smoke clears than he's gone
To a different story
Same song
Wear my heart in my palm
For the next to lay a hand on
Then its back to square one
Scared to be alone
but can't bare
to share my home with anyone
Marriage alone is what I long for
But far along stringing on
A package that groans
And now depends on
My success but don't get me wrong
I feel blessed
And don't regret
I just ask God to keep me strong
