I remember cold nights alone right
Letting smoke clog up my throat pipes
Praying we don’t fight
hoping she won’t bite
But she bit every time made my bones fly
Right from my toes to her dome right
Kicking and screaming ready to go write
The feelings lost when I tried to hold tight
To the folded moments we told on with total might
Blowing up quick like phrases from dolomite
She told me lies to know I’m right
Warming me up for every colder night
I road the tide she wrote for me like
I was ready to drown she was in control right
Under my buttons she pressed down so hard
So I let them go when I found my cards
Around the shard of a heart left in the back yard
In soil and turmoil don’t know how it got that far
From my grasp so I clap to get it back
But it don’t help me I’m wrecked when it racked
And rapped back together tether by glad
Held together by sad and ready to crack
happiness I’m a happy mess
Ready to let go of every past test
When I act stressed it’s only to pull you away
From my lips to blow smoke out colder than play
Throwin’ it ways ‘cause you’ve thrown it away
But I still wish that I could hold you today
