I have to keep this up for my buddies back in the day, this is an old track that i've outgrown, wrote it back in 2001- maybe i'll redo it one day, hope you enjoy
just a smooooooth flow
What can i say? I like to make music-
Story behind the song
the anthem for being fed up with life-
Lyrics
you know the kinda feeling after a rough day
on the job when its low pay, your think fuckin no way
am i comein back to this place, its just a waste of time,
no bail on a jail sentence without a crime
or the time when you missed the lotto by 2 numbers
or your down about your ex, drinkin yourself into a slumber
or sittin back to wonder, what is wonderful,
what is beautiful, till your minds starts gettin all dillusional
, when your pain is indesputeable who do you turn to
the worlds turned its back, it like your slippin through a small crack
evntually to disappear, away from here, my time is near
but I’ll face my day with no fear.
My bad days are everyday
Don’t know what is left to say i jus wanna say goodbye to pain
I see kids who spend days feeling the same way-
played as a pawn they whole life, waitin for game day
resortin to insane ways- of mass destruction,
these kids could have stayed to play, but no one loved’m
i got- Family, Friends, somehow i still contend,
and constantly need defend
my dignity till the end
cuz where my minds been- you know its tries to rebuild
my rhymes filled to the brim with depression
But its not grim
suicide is a sin- so i guess I’ll rap instead
cuz if i cant get this shit from my head- I’d rather be dead
but i hope to give hope with all the words that i’ve said
jus tryin to shed light on all the pain that I’ve bled
some kids, simply run off and chose the wrong path
unguided with only peers to confide in- and thats that
when your hiding from a pain deep inside and you start runnin
you get dumb and usually fuck up and hurt someone
lookin for an escape route, with no doubt, i’ve been out
and had bouts, stayed real- jus look at how it turned out
i have no gurl- no car- and really no plans so far
failin my education so hows a man gonna go far
i’ve been around this blockat least over a dozen times
and people got no clue whats really goin through my mind
