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Lyrics
lately its been hard and strainin me
basically i make it through each day painfully
see each moment I waste away aimlessly
lookin at a blank page I'm like, what more can you take from me?
I lost everything, my lifes vacancy
I no longer look forward to what the day can bring
I find myself trying to find myself
Like the secret to life was hidden behind a shelf
but its not that easy, cuz lifes decieving
wish dudes from my old block could see me barely breathing
on my tracks you could hear me screaming
each word i speak i know its somehow reaching
but its hard to find encouragement cuz I always worry if
my songs not good enough cuz i expect perfectness
but lifes turnin quick, if i dont catch up with it
then I'll to take what i get, and i'll be stuck with it
its frustrating to know, that my grades are low
not passin classes and blazin dro
but my fear, is that in next ten years
i'll still be right here, with this beat in my ear
and i'm shook within, not gettin out what i'm puttin in
chances of graduatin are lookin slim
I had everything at one point, i took it in
but then i lost it all, take look with in
see my plan was, to make in the industry
but i've been writin for a century, and no one seems to mention me
is it too hard for me? is it meant for me?
not even i can live with me, god are you kiddin me..?
Its killin me this insecurity life isnt sure to me
like drivin drunk I could end up in emergency
forget what you heard from me the in the past
If I put on the image that im cocky, dog thats not me
I'm sorry, I'm hardly confident honestly
if you had common sense you'd know thats not a part of me
So I hope you accept my apology I just wanna be real
I'm sick of dealin, with how it all feels
but i'm still tryn i'm still strugglin
I'm fed up right now, but I'm still musclin
tryna muster in any break of hope I can get
prayin that I'll gain back each day that I miss
