This is a song I recorded to let out some built up resentment and depression. Music is the best therapy there is. The intro is pretty long, I plan on fixing that later.
Rapidfire's solo/non-PostmorteM tracks.
This is just a page for any solo/non-PostmorteM songs that I do.
Lyrics
Every night of my life when I'm laying in the bed...
These thoughts are goin through my head, I wanna be dead sometimes...
When I look up at the sky I still see your face...
Starin back at me, looking down with the grace...
Of a fuckin angel, but it's been so long...
Since you last left, and you ain't been home...
And I can't keep causin this bodily harm...
Sometimes I think I just need you in my arms...
I said I wanted happiness, but I wanted yours too...
You had to know, I'd do anything for you...
And all you had to offer me in return...
Was a broken heart without a look of concern...
And that shit hurts every fuckin day...
But deep down inside I still feel the way...
That I did when I met you years ago...
Cuz when I think about you the tears a flow...
How could you just leave me behind and not even care for where I was left?
I don't understand what you're tryna do but, I'm just sittin here waiting for death...
I don't know what to think now that I've been pushed away for good...
I don't know where to go, I don't know who to see...
And then there's nights where I'm sittin back thinkin to myself...
I know I need help, but I've got nothing left...
To lose, so why should I even mother fuckin bother?
I thought we'd grow old together, I thought I'd be a father...
The hardest part was admitting I was wrong...
About where I said that your heart belonged...
And if you love him, I can understand...
But I can't help sittin back wonderin...
What woulda happened if I had been nicer...
Would you still have been a mother fuckin liar?
God only knows, and God never showed...
His presence at all when problems arose...
So I relied on pills, I know it tore you apart...
But the way you reacted wore out my heart...
So now I'm left alone in this world and I'm cold...
I don't have a hero and I don't have a soul....
