jus that down out feelin that seems to creep in every once in awhile. not suicidal, but jus waitin to die.
Lyrics
Yo I got a problem, that there aint no solvin
And I cant deal with all the shit that ive been causin
I feel as if im fallin slowly into a pit of depression
It leaves me drained and filled up with aggression
And theres noone to blame but my fuckin self
Ive tried to change my ways but nothin helps
And Ive learned that I cant rebuild the bridges that ive burned
I medicate to escape the pain but the next day it all returns
And to love sumone is so fuckin hard for me
Constantly on a search to find that missing part of me
Cuz it left so quickly and it wuz completely unexpected
But now as I look back I don’t know how I never guessed it
I guess I learned my lesson, but it wuz the hard way
I should keep my head up so I can let these scars fade
But thats a impossibility, it feels like its killing me
Depression is filling me as I welcome death willingly
I open my door 4 death
I welcome him as I take my last breath
I live a broken life that I cant mend
Im steadily waitin for my end
Not to far in the future I see myself old and alone
In a vacant home jus holdin the phone
Waitin for sumone to actually care enuff to call
But I know they wont cut I severed ties with em all
U may ask why, but yo I don’t even know
For sum reason I force all of my good things 2 go
I fuck it up even when good things are thrown at me
Cuz I jus feel unconfortable bein happy
And I know I cant trust anyone any more
Cuz ive had my trust brokin 2 many times b4
Everythin started when I wuz jus a little kid
But the older I get only the more fucked up it is
I dunno, how 2 even change my habits
I wish I could so my life wont turn tragic
So I slowly decay as I sit in dismay
My last words are fuck u to those who made me this way
I open my door 4 death
I welcome him as I take my last breath
I live a broken life that I cant mend
Im steadily waitin for my end
