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#160,268 today
Peak #537
#100,348 in subgenre
Peak #309
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July 05, 2003
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Story behind the song
me spilling out everything i've wanted to say...
Lyrics
Dear mom and dad, this is the letter I’m writing to you
I know you’ll never read this letter but this is something I gotta do
I’m 18 now, about to leave for college soon
But theres something I gotta say before I move out of my room
You’ve made a beautiful house but it wasn’t a happy home
You know why I spent so much time away and alone?
I couldn’t stand the anger. I couldn’t stand the fights. I cried to myself and then I’d go turn out the lights
You know theres a problem when our home wasn’t my haven
The thought of the place pisses me off and sends my anger ablazing
Its amazing, when did my home become this hellhole to me?
I looked at happy families and thought that’s the way it should be
Its apparent you both tried hard to be good parents
But emotions are strong, and you let anger run rampant
I was told that you stayed married for me and my brother
Well I thank but what we needed was a father and mother
Instead all we had was two bickering adults, always stuck in a feud and refusing our help
So now I vow to myself that I’ll never become like you two. Once I leave, I’ll know what exactly not to do
And that’s the truth. I’m forever affected by this experience. Never took for granted but keep this in remembrance
My futures mine to command. I control who I become. I thank you two. Cuz now I know who I’ll never become
This is the lost message that I never gave you two.
This is what I’ve wanted to say but how to say it I never knew
This is how I’ve been feeling everyday until now
This is my speaking to you and this is me declaring my vow
When I become a husband my wife will never be like you ma
When I become a parents, I wont ever lose control like you pa
Home is where the heart is, but my heart just isn’t at home
The warmth of home never existed. Its not just simply gone
Remember the time when you said you didn’t expect me to happen?
So I’m a mistake. Well imma show you that even mistakes can be great.
That I’m no accident. I’m here to fulfill destiny and fate
And those negative comments wont ever be channeled to hate
I learn from the mistakes that the both of you made
Then I vow to never make those mistakes ever again
I wont ever hold a grudge, cuz I’m grateful for what you’ve given
I owe you so much, cuz youre the reason I’m living
Where you’ve failed as parents, that’s where I’ll right the wrong
Where you’ve succeeded as people, that’s what I’ll forever hold on
These life lessons are meant to be learned. So I’ll learn and remember
I’ll open new doors and towards the better future I’ll enter.
This is the lost message that I never gave you two.
This is what I’ve wanted to say but how to say it I never knew
This is how I’ve been feeling everyday until now
This is my speaking to you and this is me declaring my vow
