Far too many times hope has failed me. I don't believe in it for sh** now....it's pointless & i dont need the slap across the face it's always given me anymore! So I'm outta hope therefore I'm hopeless.
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Far too many times hope has failed me. I don't believe in it for sh** now....it's pointless & I don't need the slap across the face it's always given me anymore! I'm not out to say "f*** you for believing in hope"....I just find it a waste of time for myself cuz its never done anything good for me!
Lyrics
it's about 10 O clock thinkin sittin in the dark
of how many times my hopes ripped apart
pondering ideal thoughts something pleasant
got 2 bucks to my name livin like a peasant
still thinkin of my old unreached dreams
falling slow but deeper I can only scream
misunderstood by whoever I speak to
hope is something I no longer seak through
my dream is crushing but I keep bustin
I beat myself in the head as im cussin
when hope builds & flies all around
it falls from the sky dead on the ground
shattered hopes & dreams by the slicer
for every time I thought things would get nicer
worried thoughts run all through my head
I wanna keep it silent & cool but then I'd have to pretend
(chorus)
every time I hope
it brings me hurt
cuz every time I do it
it becomes cursed
everyone calls me negative cuz I have no faith
what's faith? I hoped like you said it never went your way
it's like firing a gun straight up to the sky
& watching the bullet land straight in my eye
I prepare for & expect the worst
nowadays that's the way I gotta be
cuz things are ugly been too much to see
my name ain't fiction its maniacal V
& this ain't a fairytale it's l-i-f-e
I don't need to have my heart set on something I need
I lost too much depending on hope
it broke me for years till I slashed it's throat
it's something that's a fantasy never to rely on
that's a cloud that I'm done trying to fly on
I make things happen if it's in my control
but if it's not I just let things roll
all the lies all the fallbacks & disappointment
gave me wounds & giving up is the best ointment
I don't go for a tease I let it come to me
cuz hope is a prayer for a want or a need
I don't look foward I just look as it comes
I just deal with it & stay real with it
faithless after all the stabs & let downs
think I'm bull sh** tin? go ahead & place your bet down
for so long I've tried to make things happen
by the time I got close it was already crappin
I'm not here trying to tell you to quit
but as for me hope's just a b***
so I let things be & see what they show
never again will I believe in hope
no NEVER again will I believe in hope
