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Song Info
Genre
Charts
Peak #1,101
Peak in subgenre #602
Author
Khan
Uploaded
March 10, 2003
Track Files
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MP3 3.5 MB • 128 kbps • 0:00
Story behind the song
My Darkest Thoughts
Lyrics
Tonight I’m suicidal wish my vital signs would disappear
They say that life gets brighter but the light is missin here
I get drunk and seek the stars, all I find are empty skies
Emptiness is everywhere but I feel emptiest inside
To find my empty soul look inside my empty eyes
How many years, Lord, before I’m meant to die
In my darkest hour all I seek is solitude
I made a plan to die now it’s time to follow through
So f*** all of you, I scream in my drunkenness
I’m not the real **********, I’m something less
Somebody tell me, please, who am I
Am I just another guy, Contemplatin Suicide
Here I’ll let you know a secret, just between you and I
I look at people’s lives and have a secret urge to ruin mine
Somebody save me from the darkest thoughts in my mind
Please come and find me when I’m lost the next time
Suicide is a question of what do you fear less
Do you fear your next breath less than you fear death
And the shadows of my soul come and take my spirit’s light
What should I do now that my worst fear is life
Dear Luv, I neva confessed I was in love with you
I guess I’ll add that to my list of things I’ll never do
You never knew, though I wore my heart on my sleeve
My heart just didn’t matter enough for you to see
How I could hardly breathe
When you were close to me
Even tho I never let myself have hopes to be
The one that means the most to you the way you mean the most to me
Fallen hopes still put a weakling where a soldier is supposed to be
And when I scream that I’m dyin to escape this place
I really mean that I’m tryin to escape your face
But everywhere I run, my eyes see only you
And my heart pleads with me to do anything you want me to
You know I swore loud that I would never fall again
My heart must not have been, listenin, to me then
So I hide behind my battle cry, “F*** the World”
To cover up the fact that I’m just longin for a girl
Suicide is a question of what do you fear less
Do you fear your next breath less than you fear death
And the shadows of my soul come and take my spirit’s light
What should I do now that my worst fear is life
I’m drownin in my feelings, dear Lord, I can’t handle it
I fear hell, so please leave a candle lit
At the church, and won’t you say a simple prayer for me
Like you were in life, when I’m gone please be there for me
Maybe I’ll find Forever, maybe we will meet once more
Maybe then, I can explain why I left before
Or maybe I’ll stay restless, never finding peace
Maybe I’ll be trapped in hell and never get released
Or maybe God will punish me by sendin me back here
And I’ll pay for all my sins by facin my worst fears
And my only comfort is that I know it won’t be long
I won’t reach thirty years, so in twelve I will be gone
I feel it in my soul, and in my dreams I know
That it’s my fate to rest before I grow too old
But what point in livin? My only dream is crushed
My life must now be cursed, by my inner demon’s touch
Suicide is a question of what do you fear less
Do you fear your next breath less than you fear death
And the shadows of my soul come and take my spirit’s light
What should I do now that my worst fear is life
