it's about my emotion..most people sayin i'm too sensitive..and i think it's right..so many overthinking i've done stressed me a lot..it also tells my jealousy to people who made more names than me..haha i have an anger management issue right here...
the definitions of disaster..
Ndeesaster: empyric holocaust..
Story behind the song
haha basically because i'm too sensitive and i need more positive thinkings instead of questioning my talents everyday...
Lyrics
ANGER MANAGEMENT
By : NdEeSaSter
( verse 1 )
Sweet like toffee, bitter past like coffee
Hides behind stoned face mentally abusing me
Dreamin and soarin free, across boundaries of system
While I stargaze and let words cryin with soul anthem
My mind caused mayhem, as I start to visualize
People always diss, get pissed, never spit so nice
I hold my breath, walk further from the same path
Shine differently and admit my issue’s a bloodbath
Fear of culture death, pictured those bullshit rip skin
I step ahead, cross barriers put efforts to win
I’m like Siamese twin, two concepts lead to suicide
Being hardheaded wont help me prevent this genocide
Shiver from inside, trembled writing and serenade
Repeated verse although the song already reach a fade
Like dream parade, I wake up next to hungry demon
Too much hatred my conscious is less than a human
(Reff)
I’m scared….of all the people beating me down
I’m scared…of all the stars that listen and frown
I’m scared…of thoughts myself don’t deserve that crown
That’s why I hate I need some real anger management
( verse 2 )
I flip script, eyes closed and phrase bust my lips
Yet trouble comes I finish case in endless sip, huh
I need more wish list, more peace to end this
Tired on pump fist envy anesthetic kiss
Lyrics contains pain taste much like a Novocain
Ego gets insane as I need sharp healing rain
See I have more fiends, than what I do for scenes
Guilt spreads as I remember my satanic sins
Heavier than chemical mass, I pass and harass
Cant repeat situations neglect them in the past
Like weather cast, my moods affects the ingredients
When negative side takes place I become disobedient
It’s sufficient, i’m like resurrection of L.T calley
Should adjust attitude calmly, like hollaback family
Elevate, walk slippery life more carefully
though inner whisper tempt me to be first in this rally
(Reff)
I’m scared….of all the people beating me down
I’m scared…of all the stars that listen and frown
I’m scared…of thoughts myself don’t deserve that crown
That’s why I hate I need some real anger management
( verse 3 )
Me and this big mouth, mazes in brain pattern
Spit in darkest podium only lit by broken lantern
Too much to concern, my defense’s a force field
Brain is a weapon instinct builds a skeptical shield
Form a masochist self, even before I reach age 12
And as I grow more tortures come from page in dusted shelf
Break through an ear, and hatred signified fear
These flows aint substance people universally hear
Over sensitive, fastly judge all things so competitive
This song’s narrative, leaks like effect of laxative
Anger is sedative, if there’s award I’ll get all reward
Haunted in every nightmare as I slowly stumble backward
Step forward and dead, needs to forgive and forget
So when life’s creepin out I finally smile on deathbed
Nothing’s to dread, no one’s shattered on a pavement
Learn how to respect better than throw battle statement
(Reff)
I’m scared….of all the people beating me down
I’m scared…of all the stars that listen and frown
I’m scared…of thoughts myself don’t deserve that crown
That’s why I hate I need some real anger management
