Track 6 - Ain't Always Roses
Poetical rhymage.
I'm just one member of Northern Lights and this is my first ever mix tape release. I'm hoping by the next one i'll be using all my own beats but I am quite happy with some of what I got and I enjoy doing me so it's all good.
Lyrics
Yo, this girl is pissing me off, why is she running her mouth?
I try to sort out some shit but I’m left stuck here with these doubts,
Can I be winning this bout; … dare I put in the time?
Blind to how human beings should relax and unwind?
She’s a contraction on mine… deez nuts feeling the pressure
Easing the tension in my heart is the harder challenge
And the lesser’s whatever I could do to possibly manage
The side of her that wants to stay on top -
Suffering from her baggage.
Maybe I’ve had enough insufferable in this clandestine
Downward spiral falling deeper and my world’s stalled in the ether
You’re a hard rock and beneath you I am held in with a secret
Conspiracy is leaking and the river’s filling up…
And I’m still stuck at the bottom; love’s last breath tenderly rotten
Sodden… then forgotten, no last questions one last pardon…
It’s a mess we let ourselves into…
But certain aspects and the best of all the times that me and you
Would be together would be worth it, we deserved it
But deserved gets... no communication with the general population
The assurgency… of opinion we are facing
As the water keeps on rising will we both fight the tide?
Or get pulled straight in? Life behind a million lies
Can be frustrating, drowning in the tears of four eyes.
And I ain’t hating us together was a great thing, relating
Strictly to our presence; dating, separation left us aching
Add complicated people and conflicting situations
My mind, feeling pressured is getting fixed on emigration:
Quickly performed strict transcendental evacuation
From my own head and the present state this shit’s seemed to rake in
(And) I ain’t saying I don’t love you or something like I never did,
But I’m just drained from writing love songs for fading relationships
We may have made it, we prayed and wished… but in the end it really is
Something we can’t control, so much love but love can sometimes itch.
You’re the greatest ever gift in life… first prize
Unredeemable this side of two thousand and nine.
And I’m proud that you’re mine, I’ve been touched by you deeply
Even though they don’t know these people won’t let you keep me
Because secret’s explode as long as the gossip is eating
The foundations of communion that our path has been conceived in.
You’re a reason for my words but my belief is being upturned
Another leaf gets pulled away to reveal the ground we’ve earned
Hard to stand from either’s perch and the season’s changed so much
I’d hoped to watch the leaves grow back with you and fly away at dusk.
There was an instant of mistrust and though things hurt we settled that
Almost completely broke up and yet somehow worked it out
Now I’m feeling it’s late in the day, it was meant to be greater this way
I’m still debating the game; do we make or break since it changed?
Or will we still try to be; like two animals caged
Always screaming that I love you to but you’re way out of range.
Can WE handle us? Pray! This is a stress on my brain
A tough lesson from the difficulties we have to face
And when I look at YOUR face or I hear your name
I know I love you… and so I’m forced to try this again.
