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Peak #4,759
Peak in subgenre #2,578
Author
Trix
Rights
Trix
Uploaded
November 30, 2004
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MP3 3.2 MB • 128 kbps • 0:00
Story behind the song
Just about my childhood and stuff, just wanted to get it off my chest
Lyrics
Born and raised in the UK and proud of it too..// Lived in popley bukskin and south ham before i was in senior school..//
Basingstoke's where im from and ill rep it everyday..// Without some of the people here my life wouldn't be the same.
I was raised by my mum and have an elder sister and no brothers..// Dad left not long after i was born, ran off with his lover
Another woman with 3 kids yet he looked after them..// Turnt up 4 years later when he went for custody again
He lost the case so in the end with mums where we stayed..// But every saturday we wud go to his place
He would go to sleep and make us look after two 4 year old kids..// I was 5 my sister was 8 das some fucked up shit
Watched from a corner seeing my elder sister getting hit..// Cus one of the kids ran infront of a car and just got missed
I was scared unaware or what to say or to do..// Sister crying her eyes out bruises comming out black and blue
Because I wont cry
Don't mean I don't
This is my life
My childhood
Mum found out obviously, and she went balistic..// When she saw him next time she looked him in the face then hit it
Sis never went to his house ever again but I stil did..// He would hit me all the time but I just dealed with it
Would go back home like everything was fine and rosey../ Mum had a new husband kept acting like he knowed me
Telling me what to do and saying I could call him dad..// But I knew who my father was, he was just someone I never had
Thought life at home would be better for me and sis..// But fights with knifes and smashed glasses were all we ever witnessed
Every now and then the police would get involved..// He would be taken away, shit im only 8 years old
One time was the best there was lights everywhere inside and out..// Turns out the S.W.A.T team was surrounding the house
Got a prank call telling them mum had gone and shot us all..// 8 years old seein a gun put to my mums head at the front door
Because I wont cry
Don't mean I don't
This is my life
My childhood
I was forced to ignore the thoughts inside of my head..// Reminding myself lifes great no more said
But I was not prepared to face this life I lead alone..// Till it got to the stage of a bag over my head and rope round my throat
I wanted to go because im not strong enough to cope..// I was prepared to die alone on that hill peacefull and slow
But no here I am with nothing but scars and memorys..// And voices in my head, I wont forget what people have said to me
So many enemys its like me against the world now..// But all of this pain has just shown me I wont fall down
Im proud how ive grown into the man that I am today..// be independent, be the master never a slave
Learn the ways to live got myself recognized..// Got a job at 16 hand mumma my wages see the tears In her eyes
Only man in the house so I got to provide..// Because shes to ill to get a job, so ill be the one to fight for our lifes
Because I wont cry
Don't mean I don't
This is my life
My childhood
Because I wont cry
Don't mean I don't
This is my life
My childhood
