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Exhale (Pord by Dreamlife ft Breana Mari
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This song is from the Vicarious EP, released Dec 18, 2019...It's a story about a friend who was molested by her dads friend and after she threatened to tell her dad, he committed suicide.
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From the North Shore of Staten, NYC. I use free beats, write, record, and mix all my own stuff. Not in this for fame or money, enjoy the music for free...
from the north shore of staten island, nyc...started doin music in 04...was in a group called ghostown, dropped 2 mixtapes, had sum succes...group split, i went solo... went to IAR (institute of Audio Research) and opened up my own home studio...the business of music made me lose all interest completely in the art...sold all my equipment n went on an 8 year hiatus...my house burnt down n random people out of nowhere started requesting a new cd...wen u have a gift n u dont use it u r being disrespectful to urself n every1 around who appreciates it, as well as the art itself...i went out, bought all new equipment, n have been creating more art since...i record n mix myself, come up wit all song concepts, lyrics, n samples myself...
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Genre
Hip-Hop • Hip Hop General
Charts
Peak #351
Peak in subgenre #196
Author
J-Formz
Uploaded
December 18, 2019
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MP3 11.9 MB • 320 kbps • 5:13
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WAV 78.9 MB
Story behind the song
This song is from the Vicarious EP, released Dec 18, 2019...It's a story about a friend who was molested by her dads friend and after she threatened to tell her dad, he committed suicide. She refused to attend the wake and caught her dad cheating on her mom which started a feud between her and her father that lasted months. When he decided to come back to his family, he died on the way and she never got to tell her father what his friend did to her. It's a real shame that people have to go through things like this, especially little kids. This girls strength and willingness to continue on are extremely admirable to me and I thank her for sharing this story.
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Hook: (Breana Marin & J-Formz) I've been trying to run from my problems...To keep another one from adding on...I feel so numb, I'm so far gone...Cause the collateral damage is done...Just need to exhale...(Just breath, just breath...) I just need to exhale...(I'm aight...) I just need to exhale...(Said we good, we good...) I just need to exhale...(Just breath...) Verse 1: (J-Formz) I swear, it looked picture perfect, I seen a hero in my dad...We did everything, wanted t be the son he never had...Until somebody passed, call them a real close friend...The wake came, the war started when I wouldn't attend...And shit was never the same again, seein him stopped...Til 1 day I found out why I ain't seen him a lot...Sneakin around on my mother, I'm just another little kid...Of course I went and told mom about the things that he did...And then he leaves with her when she fuckin wrecked my home!? Speak to this man if you want, I'll be fine all alone...It's been months and no word until he wanna come back...Scared to open that door again, I'm nervous that it's a trap...Swallowed pride, apologized, shit, I cried for days...He left the bitch to come back to me and he died on the way...Never got to tell him why his friend committed suicide...He was molesting your daughter for almost half of her life...I'm sorry... Hook: Verse 2: (J-Formz) It should've been an innocent moment out in front by the swings...And then he called me in for dinner, I remember everything...It's so vivid in my brain, why it's etched in my mind? I see the living room couch, it's flashbacks every time...The incense burnin like I could smell it in my nose...As if I'm still there now, I see my pink and purple clothes...And then he turns to me, "I see you know how to kiss...Does your dad know what you did? What would he think about this?" Laid me down on the couch and started tickling my arms...Graduated to my belly and then continued right on...I could still feel his hands goin down in my pants...It's like I'm frozen in fear, I never even stood a chance...I'm only 5 years old, he looks me dead in the eye...And says "you ever say a word, your whole family will die"...But I put up a fight...Threatened to tell me dad and it's sad cause the next day he went and took his own life...I'm sorry... Hook: Verse 3: (J-Formz) It was nothin but downhill, where to begin? Gettin abused in school, lyin and tryina fit in...I attracted old men evern when I was a child...And the fear of it again has made me hate my own smile...Her baby dad hit my sis while I was living in the house...And cause I stood up for her, they went and kicked my ass out...Then I contracted a disease from bein homeless on the streets...It's been a fucked up road to live with PTSD...And still I blame myself, shouldn't have kissed that boy...A child's supposed to be innocent, guess I missed that joy...I feel angry, this supposed to be my family...Thank God my mom's a role model, it helped me keep my sanity...Silver linings in every story, I'm sure...Cause now I see life different and I appreciate more...Your mind frame is key, instead of dwelling on the topic...I'mma stay golden and tellin myself "I got this"...I'm not sorry...
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