This song shows how only God can turn someone who is a total failure into someone truly blessed.
Christian Rapper
Big Dan is originally from San Antonio Texas but chose to move to Oklahoma due to some trouble that he had encountered back home. He has a website www.dirtycross.com which has an extensive bio. that explains why he had to move.
Story behind the song
I believe at some point in everyone's life we've felt that we didn't deserve to have the life that we lead. But only when we put God first in everything that we do, do we find peace that is unexplainable.
Lyrics
Matthew 6:33
Sometimes I feel like quittin'
why can't this battle stop
I'm itchin' for solutions to the madness that I've got
How can I stop the pain?
How can I stop the struggle?
How can I stop from doin' crimes and gettin' into trouble?
I guess I'm born to lose, a natural born killa
I'll never grow to be a man much less a father figure
I'm stressin' man it's hard to do the things that's right in life
The things I shouldn't do I end up doin' every night
I'm full of sin I feel it pumpin' runnin' through my vains
Oh Lord just come into my soul and stop this burnin' flame
Because my minds consumed with all these evil thoughts inside
I need you Lord to take my hand just please become my guide
I'm tired of fallin' Lord, I wanna turn and rise
up outta satan's den and all his dirty evil lies
I know you hear me Lord, I can't be waistin' breath
because the more I sin the closer that I feel to death
I'm seeking first your kindom, I need your righteousness
cause only you can turn a failure into truly blessed
Well here I am Lord, I've left the dirty life
I thank you cause without you Lord I would've lost this fight
I'm glad you gave me answers, to all my human doughts
I love you Lord and in this life I just can't be without
Your Holy Word the Bible, is what I feed my soul
And now I'm fishin' for some men to walk them streets of gold
I'm drinkin' from your fountain, so I wont thirst no more
I'm glad I heard you knockin' and I opend up my door
So I'll continue rhymin', to help you spread the knowledge
and feed these hungry people fruits of life and free from bondage
and every step I take, I take it full of faith
I know you'll help me float through all this danger and this hate
I'm here to reach into your minds and deep into your souls
and ask you when you die do you know where you'll even go
I hope you go to heaven, cause there for sure I know
I'll be there rappin' for my Farther Son and Holy Ghost.
