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Vagenda
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1994 Vagenda. All rights reserved
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April 04, 2017
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MP3 3.3 MB • 160 kbps • 2:55
Story behind the song
*WARNING*
If you would rather enjoy this piece of art and have it come to mean something truly unique to you, do not read the backstory. Just as the band “Aerosmith” once criticized the music video industry of robbing fans from having their own visions of imagery associated to a song and supplanting it with some “official” footage, so too can knowing a songs backstory potentially come to rob it of having some special place and meaning for you.
Or both can exist. It’s all really subjective. Proceed with understanding.
Thank you,
V
The Official Backstory
Every once in a while a song lands in my mind all at once, completed.
This was one of those songs. On a walk home from school in grade 12, walking by a convenience store called "Big Al's" in New Glasgow, Nova Scotia, early in the fall of that school year - this song came to me intact.
It might not be the most diverse, or complex - but there is a quality about it that I just like.
I think it captures very well the mental struggle sorting out the biological chemical withdrawal we blindly stumble through after losing our first love, the collapse and inability frequently to distinguish stress for pain, depression from confusion, and so on.
I still don't know if I should call it depression or confusion, after all of these years, so the working title stands.
Lyrics
I Don't Know If I Should Call It Depression Or Confusion
© 1994 Vagenda. All rights reserved
Heathcliff from 1939 Wuthering Heights:
“I killed you
Haunt me then
Haunt your murderer
Be with me always
Take any form
Drive me mad
Do not leave me in this dark alone
I can not live without my life
I can not die without me soul”
Again
Its a full circle
about time
about a centre
It’s so confusing
Disillusioned
In a state of mind
With no flag
Singing:
Someone help me
Someone help me
Someone help me
Someone help me
Someone help me
Someone help me
Someone help me
Someone help me
I don’t know if I should call it
Depression or confusion
