Lyrics
I sit back sometimes and think of days gone by, So long ago, I don't remember this guy,
I was, just a young one, 8 years old,
When I used to hang out, those nights got cold,
Had no care in the world, just out to have fun,
Loved everyone, and still got none,
A white kid, hangin' with the black fellas,
Tryin' to prove to them that I'm better, they should be jealous,
But I moved away, dark shades disappeared,
I didn't know what a white-black-white brother would have feared,
Picked on, 'cause I didn't have a lot of cash,
It was time to prove to them that I had class,
Still no love, 'cause they were so stuck up,
Grew up, now all they get is f---ed up,
And now that I'm older, I laugh at those who hated,
'Cause now they give me mad respect, 'cause they're lives faded,
I just stick to my confident ways,
And sit back and think back to those days...
I close my eyes and I realize,
That I pushed myself to my own demise,
I was always tryin' to live up to other people,
I guess I was the black sheep who turned evil,
I didn't make my life this way,
I was used and abused, my feelings got toyed,
You think I was overjoyed, hell no I wasn't,
I watched my life get chipped away and amount to somethin',
I've changed from then to now,
And I'm stronger physically and vocally, hear me now,
'Cause this is me, and not a phase,
Let me help you think back to those days...
I started writin' rhymes when I was in the 8th grade,
Laugh now, but I'm the one gettin' payed,
It all happened when I had this little crush,
This girl, that I wanted to love a bunch,
Other fellas wanted to get up and under her dress,
I had to porve to her that I was the best,
I wrote a little poem and made my own rhyme,
And jammed a whole song in no time,
We never got together, but it was just a quickstart,
About the things I wanted to say when they're on my heart,
And right now, I love a girl that's so close to me,
I'm gonna make her mine, then you'll see,
It's not about the money, fortune or fame,
'Cause before all this, she knew my real name,
I hope in her heart she still needs me,
We've gone through a time that was so confusing,
I still love her, and it's still an eternal flame,
When we get together, it won't be the same,
We've both grown, in our own seperate ways,
The time apart, it was just a phase,
I've paid my dues, and I own my own base,
'Cause I still can think back to those days...
