Lyrics
As a kid growing up, I was neat, I admit it/
I know I didn’t need to, I seemed so committed/
I was orderly, yes, borderline neat freak/
Sorta like a hoarder, but kept my shit in order/
I was fortunate to be nothing more than just a teen/
Dormant and organized, ignoring all the people/
That were mindless, I was finding it was spineless/
To focus on surroundings, I had to be independent/
But it depended on the day, depended on my mood/
It depended on everything, like every fuckin thing/
Like why is it this way, it’s supposed to be this way/
No, it’s not supposed to be, it has to be this way/
It’s moved past neatness, so much dependency/
What you call OCD is just a tendency/
A menace, a menace, it’s just a menace see/
A pet peeve to you is my fuckin enemy/
You have no clue what it’s like in these shoes/
To get up, go to work, and close the door behind you/
Walk to the curb, but look behind you/
I know it’s closed, man don’t look behind you/
Yes it’s closed, I can get in my car/
I can leave now, nope, I put it in park/
Just check once more man you gotta be sure/
Gotta check once, twice, three times, four/
It’s gotta be four, I can’t look back/
Keep walkin to the car man, don’t look back/
Don’t you dare, don’t waste another minute/
I can see my car but I can’t get in it/
Already sweating bullets, my mind is on full its/
Not letting me go to work, I need to go to work/
I can see my neighbors leaving their house/
I wave, but inside, I scream and shout/
See, a task like this is a massive fist/
In my stomach – twisting, imagine this/
If everything you did was an item on a list/
And you couldn’t do a thing until the first was perfect/
Now try to do that while you faking a smile/
While everyone think you crazy coz you takin a while/
I have no options or choices to make/
I gotta do what I gotta do, it’s like a poison I’m takin/
I can’t stop drinking, I drink and drink it/
No idea when to finish man, can’t even think it/
I’ll waste a whole day just tryna get started/
I cancelled a date because of crumbs in carpet/
I know it seems stupid, It is fucking stupid/
I counted, and counted em, again and again/
I did it for hours, it seemed like hours/
I know that I missed one and it’s still in my head/
Powerless, cowardice, hours and hours, it’s/
Time to go home but I’m still in my bed/
This shit’s no joke, it can leave you broken/
I’m bound to beat it when the beast is woken/
I feel like choking and I’m down and out/
I can come up swinging man without a doubt/
And Ima be on top, I’m gonna beat this, watch/
