Rap from a decade ago.
The T R E Z
Lyrics
I woke up just recently to get myself ejected
Resurrected just to see myself rejecting
Help from anybody was much more than respected
Never wanted me to be representing false affections
So I'm stuck on blaming myself, made my own life
surrounded in Hell
It's like I'm miniscule..and yeah, I know been a
fool
Sometimes it makes me pissed that the rope untwist
the day I seen my foot kickin away the stool
Since that day my emotions were sharper than they
ever were
It's absurd when you ain't gotta pick the sharpest
tool inside of the shed's door
I become a bit too vulgar on the in of my core
All you little bitches were never able to complete
even a fifth of my tour
I know most people learn to move forward
But in a backwards kind of way I do for sure
Typical fight that I pour
I implore you to come relate to this, hardcore
I swore just once more, I resent every single event
when I would praise you lord
I want it to be suited in I
Cause the sooner decides
If I'll be zooming the sky
Being swooned in disguise
You see the wound in this eye
And in the other, it cries
Rooting another level of high
I been slitting curves on me being too kind
Along the lines of a brutal sin of grim so
complicated when contemplating a rebirth thinking
I'll win.. At least I know I can if I be committing
again to a lethal inclined type of suicide
It's either you're damned if you do
Making you stuck doing what you don't
You know you die as soon as you lose
But even if you try to die you just won't
Another broken condition, unfixed hope
Living life on this Earth is funny and all but it's
no joke
When even breathing the oxygen is making you choke
Ironically put yourself in the middle of the ocean
But even then the fucking man up there will be making
you float
Whatever matters to me will never let me coop
Giving my all to what I want is no hoax
I'm very exuberantly picking on every single word
that's coming out of my mother fucking throat
I trust myself most comparing to a post to throw
Good to know that old friends never die off...they just steer off to the side when you're just trying to get by
It's fun to take ride When you ain't got nothing but pride
Putting all other feelings aside. It's either you're gonna do what is needed and want nothing other than to carry yourself off the clock ticking away at your time
Guess I feel depressed more than ever today...
I just want the dark...the light makes me wanna hide today away
For some other reason though...God is pinning me to this world like I got a motivating reason to stay
Whichever the way he best be stopping my dropping thoughts with all of the games that he's played
Or I'll be heading up there with a hate in my eyes looking into his grace's face
After taking my own. Slicing the tracks of my veins with dulled out & rusty razor blades
With my luck, he'd have nothing to say and overpower me with a fist full of slaves making me yurn for my grave and put me back in my cage
and then I'm back to the ground I engage
But just like any other page
I'll be tearing it out in a rage after just one day
Another lost hope and focused fades from yet another victim the earth turns to clay