its been awhile
we talked
but i forgive
its been a while since ive prayed
i feel ashamed like im eve
i try to hide but he sees
all flow and my deeds
im on my knees and plead
im tired of hustling the street
i put the flag down i quit
im done pretending its real
im out of joy i can kill
im fool of hate i cant feel
my heart is numer than steal
my father left as kid
i turned to drugs for releave
i blame my self all this years
i prayed for answers his here
face to face full of tears
why you left all this year
im screaming yellin at him
the only answer is clear
he never cared about me
i was burden on him
but i forgive im free
now i can pray i feel peace
hold my daughter to sleep
and not repeat what he lived
