Free download
Hip hop, Rap, Freestyle
Song Info
Genre
Charts
Peak #1,561
Peak in subgenre #828
Author
PhenO
Rights
2004
Uploaded
March 24, 2004
Track Files
MP3
MP3 3.1 MB • 128 kbps • 0:00
Story behind the song
We wanted to take a different direction with this song. Tried to make a more emotional, upsetting song instead of the usual shit talking.
Lyrics
Pheno:
And now I know- my hearts broken this time,
How could they say that Im joking this time?!
Im crying out- but I'm choking...in time
You know, I really shoulda been a bit outspoken this time
My life, it gets served like a crime,
Im going berzerk- and its fine,
Ill be dealt no service in time...
Until you unearth the surface of my heart...and dirt is all you'll find.
And as I blink at my wrists, and I see that Im bleeding indeed,
And it seems like Im dreaming...
And all my demons are seeping...
Im screaming…
I stuck out my hand for help...but nobody was reaching.
This blade is a life in my hands, I despise...
If I died- could you say that the sun still rises?
Cuz to me, I realize I cant hide, cant deny...
That the day I was born... was the day I died.
It was the day I died. I never really lived. It was the day I truely died.
Man I’m a puppet, Im above this- so fuck it.
I dangle, I’ll cut it- I’m mangled…. My strings will come untangled…
My breath is slowly strangled,
They say to get a grip, but I was never given any handles.
If on this night, I was rolling the dice of my life,
I’d be right- cuz to lose is how Im betting.
Upset and stressed, depressed and sweating, trembling….
I guess its best if y’all were left remembering…
This disguise, I’ve tried to hide- my world is setting.
I realize my eyes are tired… I need some resting
J-Pop:
perhaps you never knew what was up, that I was goin through
so much, copin with confusion led to bruises and cuts
cuz losin some blood was the only way I knew to open up
hopin you'd notice and ask "what's up?"
but the excuses were enough to attest, so you'd digress
suggestions of self abuse, no use to second guess
but the illusion's over, I can't cope with the stress
I guess I should have shown I was depressed...
a pool's growin, I'm bleedin a steady flow
I'm leakin pleanty, my arm's feelin heavy though
then I regret it, I don't wanna die any more
I'm screamin, "please! I'm not ready to go!"
I drag my body, leavin streaks across the floor
breathin heavy, crawlin, reachin for a phone
Im trying to call 9-1-1 on my cell...
But I left it too high, by the knife on the shelf,
So now Im lying by myself... crying out for help,
Realizing I dont wanna be dying by myself,
I'm yearning for someone else,
My lesson is learned- its working,
It hurts, and its burning,
I've got some dirt in the cut- QUIT SQUIRTING!
Its making it worse! Dont you see that Im nervous?!
Im dying.
Its fine- I deserve it. I earned this. No crying.
Im worthless. Dont deny it. Its worth it. Its time to leave earth...
I just apologize I couldn't be perfect. . .
