Lyrics
[verse 1]
no joy ... just pain
no clouds ... just rain
no gains ... just loss
low pay ... high costs
eyes to the stars, fight tears
why me lord, no idea
unfog my thoughts, let my mind clear
... maybe i'da seen all the signs here
understood the warnings, known that the times near
i hate surprises and you harped upon my fears
strummin my pain, smiled in my face
you was just laughin at an inside joke
... and then you went against my hopes
best friends turned foe my defenses low
my resistance gone when i entered to the horror scene
or as you'd say, romantic comedy
[hook]
[verse 2]
no love, just hate
no chance, just fate
no lanes, road blocks
metaphor, for my thoughts
feels like i'm lost, no way out
why me lord, why plagues now
blood on my door, so i let my gaze now
pass over my back shoulder, like a fade route
comin for my back and you got a blade out
you forget i had yours when u was in need
witnessed every minute, all the pain i seen
stuck witcha thru the thickness of that hiv
i guarantee a sane person woulda let you sink
i kept ya head above water, that's speaks to my insanity
... and your actions speak to your vanity
cause of calamity, future was a fantasy
[hook]
[verse 3]
fell flat, no air
eyes locked, what's there?
cold stares, heat seekers
well you don't care, me neither
rip my heart out, toss it in a deep freezer
lock it, keep the key secret, i wont ever need it
cut deep, no bleedin, couldn't even feel it beatin',
beat down, can't speak, short breath, can't breathe
... , ...
... , so this is how it's gonna be
we, run our course, no remorse, no apologies
leave, out the door, no, won't let it bother me
... instead i'll sit here, logically
think it over, emotion's too hard for me
but ya lover was supposed to be my friend
either way can't win, so i guess i'll blame him
[hook]
