i stop, look and listen. When i STOP, there i saw our past flashing back and there decided to LOOK, then i saw you being happy with a crowning smile, and finally i LISTEN just to realized then that i was still with you. There are really things which are unexplainable, though your aware of it but you can't just...SURRENDER and THERE YOU ARE HOLDIN ON....there are many things in life that i am searching for, and this includes: meaning of love, hope and freedom. Though, these 3 words are usually common to some but why this wasn't the same for me? i feel sometimes deeply bad about myself because i never understand what am i really doing and why i am doing such action(s). I am searching for explanation for such but i don't have the idea where i could start. I learned many things in school but then i cant find for the true answers which i am looking for, so i preferred to read some books which may i could find some, and then i once discovered partly the answer but i am not pretty sure about it (if it is the true answer or not). the book was called BRIDA by paulo coelho, i learned that there are life instances that wherein your question are not meant to be answered and you don't have to look forward or even to search for those answers cause it must be kept and hidden. I learned with the book, that when you feel deeply attracted with someone or so-called INLOVE, you would find yourself very faithful to him/her inspite of the truth that he/she is already happy with someone------then that is LOVE. I feel somehow enlightened about this sharing i had to you guys and i hope that you would find also the answers of your questions. i may not feel fulfilled of what i found but it was really a GREAT START FOR ME, and for my searching. much love!