Alright, I find that trying to please everyone can find you not pleasing yourself. So I made some decisions to live on purpose and accept what path God has for me. I stop caring about the particulars and paid more attention to the substance issues before me. I love my family, but those are the ones sometime that cause the most grief and heart ache in your life. My responsibility is to my immediate family and making sure they are safe and secure. The extra things that I do for my family and the things that they do for me should always be heart felt. If you are going to do something for me just to ask for it back or throw it in my face when I don?t do as you expect, then save it for ocean and let it float away. This is not a conversation about love and the ability of being there. This is a conversation about knowing what stability and growth means to a family. By God?s grace I stand a man on my own two feet and work for anything that I have. I just wish that those of us who are groan and role models do just that. Stop being hypocritical with christianity, and live as we do for two hours on Sunday morning while listening to the word. Cause Monday thru Saturdays brings total different attitude toward one?s self and others.

I don't get it but it is not my place 2 understand I guess. I can never seem 2 please the 1 that I feel the most about. It is always something and it never ends. I have peace with myself from God and Jesus and the words of my spiritual father. I have been cheated on, lied on, talked about, and mistreated. I lost a lot but gained more in spirituality and self assurance. I have all the tools to be successful and I am waiting on my turn for my blessings. I am not sure if that love one will be with me and on top of that, I may loose my unconditional love times 2. I am preying for this situation and I have decided to be totally submitted to God and Jesus Christ. That may mean 2 loose everything in order 2 gain the blessings that are due 2 me. I walk by faith and not by sight when it comes 2 all areas of my life. This situation will hurt just like the other situations that came 2 me this year. I tell u this and believe me, I should be dead right now but I am alive with the holy spirit carrying me to my deliverance. I am on his time and not mine. If its true love then that love will come back 2 me. If it is not, then the truth will make u free and not set u free.

O.k. Friends, I will keep this short and to the point. I have come 2 the conclusion that my faith and the coarse that I am presently on will give me the promise that God has 4 me. let me explain what these things are: 1) peace 2) no debts 3) Success as a music producer and 4) The ability to provide for my family even after 1000 years has passed by. If U don't know what that means I will explain, OLD MONEY. That's my thinking process for the rest of my life. So ask UR self thid ?. What U gonna do? I'll see yall in success....

You know life is good while everything goes perfectly. When things begin to fall apart in a sense, that is when you find out who are your real supporters and haters. I for the most part would let these things bother me for a long extent of time. Thankfully for me, I found that it's not as bad as it looks and I should embrace the changes and circumstances that come about. Thinking this way has allowed me to see life more clearly. Thou I may get talked about and hated by those close to me, I still stand strong and wait on my deliverance. Between 2008 and 2009, I have faced some issue brought forth by others, but I feel free in every since. I do believe that I may have to let more situations and friendships go, I no in my spirit that this is the right thing. I do not know where the Lord is leading me, but I trust him with full security of my life. I again I say that it is not so bad where I am in life right now. I am along for the ride and I promise you I will come out on top or dead in my grave. God did not bring me this far for nothing. I hope those of you who read this will feel the same empowerment as I do. Believe in yourself and the spirit that surrounds you.....

Life is hard enough without the daily headaches involved. We all need to get in touch with our spirit and control what's going on aroubd us. Don't let your soul and body dictate your actions. Once you define what your spirit is saying to u the everything else is secondary. I am a living witness to this and I have no need to lie. For reference read Psalms 42 & 43.