2 years i fell for the lies his version of the truth i deteriorated going from young woman to youth believing every single word because a girl with no father has faith in wuts heard working her way backwards she has faith that that man will not abuse has faith in her man even wen that faith is misused. because a girl with no father needs someone to fill the empty shoes. so she gives the boy power and a little ego boost gives him all smiles... since he's filling the shoes. he thinks he's a man n bites off more than he can chew she gave him her heart but he resents the responsibility cause wen it was flirting and fuckin he was all wit it, but now that its patience and effort he aint trying to commit so she gives him an inch but he always seems to take a mile because he knows that those shoes aint going nowhere for a while he knows shes attached and has given him her soul so he thinks he can play games...puts her on hold until one day the girl decides she is strong enough to go it alone puts her big girl panties on slowly says goodbye on the inside then oneday tells him she's gone. she takes time to herself and regains her soul realizes that if she just loves herself as much as she loved him it wont hurt no more and when he sees her shine... for the very first time... he wants to posses that star he says all the things she was dying to hear from the start but they're all just a little to late she's come too far because this woman lost the naiive ideas but has now turned to mistrust of the human race. she tries to fit back in but its no longer her place. so instead of it being a relationship its all a lie...but it gleams i mean it shines on the outside... until the lies are uncovered u see he wants me as much as i used to want him and my heart bleeds for him cause i know the pain he is in... but it could never be the same again. confusion submerged in wisdom brings truth to the surface and a whole lot of pain... i tried to love u again in vein and ive decided its not worth it i know this is a hand full... but wen u hurt, remember this i didnt know how to break a heart until u lead by example now reminisce. -brytani c schott 8/7/07

i wanna paint your body all over mine drink u down like a tall glass of wine lettin u run all thru my senses every part of yo body that was once tense is now relieved listnin to your heartbeat cant fall asleep cause i cant miss a second of a moment so deep. can i please creep into your heart and soul plant seeds of love and watch them grow ILL be your warmth in the cold if u promise to never let go By brytani S.

random scraps of future poems i have laying around __________________________________________ cuz at the end of the day i wanna kik back wit u.. bump talib kweli and roll up some trees _________________________________________ shit just aint wut it used to be see i may look young, but beyond my yeRS I have widom where my emotions should b. music has turned into the highschool hoochie gettin around, letting everyone have a piece of the pie wondering why its infected and diseased. and these yung bucks have no idea they cant see it so wut they hear from the rap niggas they aspire to be it drugs, money, hoes runnin from the police... painting pictures with music videos makin it seem like thats the place 2 b and my only prolem wif this is... i gotta baby brother no older than 6 years and im coutin on him... 2 be the future so all yall niggas glorifying drugs and streets while im trying to teach him to stand on his own 2 feet legally u may be my nigga and all but u not playin me and in 14 more years lil bro will be a young man with capabilities. because he wasnt lead to apire to be like erry utha nigga on BET. ____________________________________________ i dont even know if u remember wut u said last time we talked see u was drunk n high but wut we sed ment a lot but in case u forgot... we was politicing n vibin reminising of times before we even used to want to get high because life was so beautiful sober no artificaial ingredients need be added wut eva wun of us needed, the other one had it but we still both know its over... and even tho u say u'll be back to claim ur heart some day I retain pain in my soul Ill never be able to love again that way. ______________________________________________ provides the strive n drive to make u want to do more than just survive. be more than just alive I want to do more than just get by _____________________________________________ HOW CAN U kiss me and curse me wit the same mouth? love me and hurt me with the same heart? ______________________________________________

its beautiful when 2 people can chief together cause not only does that mean they can lean 2gether but they can scheme 2gether and more importantly they can dream together 8/9/07 and then u died and left me here u must have told me your first lie cause u told me things would be clear when your gone but you were wrong. i sing our same old songs... and there stil "aint no sunshine when she's gone" i'd like to fly like u... an angle in heaven but i cant so i do wuts closest to it i get high... but i still cant reach you. only reason im still going is because i kno i live beneath you. 8/15/07 7:43pm in one aspect u are who people say you are because even if u arent who they say u are its who u aspire to be.because its where u fit into the world comfortably. this is dangerous because for example if a nigga gets praised by friends and fam more for coming home from jail than coming home from college, he is naturally going to do what is expected of him. glass ceiling? or just weak characters? 8/20/07

So i decided im going to write. here is where i will post it. I deleted unknown friends and made everything private, so hopefully people i dont know cant read it. Gonna start finding beats, but i have to get out whats in my head now, so writing begins now, Why do fatherless daughters time and time again choose the profession of turning boys into men but dont ever marry them She aborts her unborn daughter cause she cant kill that part of herself. She cries herself to sleep wishing she was someone else her dad was never around so he never taught her that alone doesnt mean lonely & he never bought her anything so better is bigger she comes across as a gold digger cause no 1 takes the time to see the bigger picture she cuts herself to see if she still bleeds or her heart still beats. her expertise is gettin shitted on she'll never understand that there is no bigger bond than the one that you have wit that man for a reason. he's your "daddy" for the season. you cant reason with her unless you have a penis you cant help her cause she wont help herself she says she understands but she dont mean it she dont know how 2 love herself cause he never taught her how she gives all of that love to somebody else her father never showed her what she was worth she has no self respect her situation gets worse the older she gets life just goes on she gets so depressed clubs, niggas, Std's shopping, make up and free drinks cant numb the pain but at least she up in VIP He dont love her but at least he dicks her down for free how else would she fall asleep hes cheap compared to sleeping pills If she could just find a nigga to pay her bills the way daddy shoulda daddy coulda daddy woulda but daddy didnt She hopes the next nigga can do what daddy failed to do But She doesnt know that its impossible to find a dude that can fill daddy's shoes. by Brytani S. 10/5/08