You know I always check this profile maybe once every year?! I don't rightly know why.. Then again there are many things I don't know. Ugh, sometimes I really make myself sick. Anyways, here I am disclosing idiotic tidbits to you... why are you reading this? The other day I saw a fly caught between my window's glass pane and my storm window's glass pane in my attic (which is freezing cold because there is a foot and a half of snow covering the roof, it's been snowing a lot here lately) and watched it buzz around, trapped in its pathetic little shell of a life, stuck between two glass panes and having no meals and a spider's web and BEING the meal. Eventually it got too bold for its own good and managed to get trapped in the spider's lair. I watched it as it became dinner. Quite a fascinating thing to behold. I bet there's videos on Youtube that you can watch. I bet there's all kinds of disturbing on youtube. Will you dare to find out? Let me know the results ;)

Two blogs in the same day? Not quite, it's quite exactly one minute until... Yea, it's midnight now. Ha! No, I don't know why I titled the blog entry as such. It just seemed like a good idea at th time and I'm not going back to change it because it reeks of intrigue and makes me sound as if I had some kind of topic in mind when I started writing this. Mind you, if I ever did all traces of it are gone by now. In case you'd like to know I'm listening to "freak music" right now. Specifically Switchblade Symphony Radio at last.fm which is a place you should visit- go it'll do you some good. If you've got an account there already let me know, we can has bee frenz! Yay! FYI- I keep my meme PG-13 rated 84% of the time. "Why 84%?" you ask. Well, because it's a multiple of 21, which is a multiple of 7... *obviously* Don't worry, I think I'm crazy too. I've been reading in my native tongue (which is NOT français) lately... it's good to get back in touch with one's roots. I almost wrote rots in the previous sentence and now am pausing for a moment of contemplation upon the humorous connotations of that misinterpretation. I have decided this to be deciduously deviant to common [media] Ignore the paragraph above. Actually now that you've already read it go back and enjoy it once again for you're not likely to see such piece of genial orderly insanity in a long while. Unless, that is, if you continue to read my writings. I must warn you, though, that to read further will cause you irreversible psychological damage that will lead you straight into that world of Stolen Babies "Push Button" music video. Consider yourself WARNED. That is all.

Just. Wow. It's been AGES since I've posted or even checked this profile, but here I am again. And, wow, I used to sound like a whiny little 16-year-old. Two years later... now I probably sound like a more-or-less whiny 18-year-old. Who has a lot more CD's than for mer self in previous blog entries. Anyways, hello, thanks for reading. In case I haven't emphasized correctly, I am a writer and *huge* music fan. This profile has over 4,000 view on it!!! That's probably about 2,000 times more than my facebook profile. Surprised? Don't be. Facebook sucks for you if school sucked for you and you're sick of the world. As I am. If you're still reading this, let me know why [media] so I know what it it that makes people tik. And also, I'll probably just never find you otherwise ;) GOOD NEWS I finally got that wonderful song "Second Coming" by GitM, and that score album for the QotD film. Yea I know, I know. I miss Daria, the TV show? Wow, back when MTV was good. Actually I never watched Daria on MTV. I didn't even know what MTV was until... 2003 or 4. So I missed the glory days, but I caught Daria in the reruns on The N. The MTV people and music people should REALLY get together and square off and just release the show on DVD already, dammit! *sigh* Anyways, anybody want to frequent goth places around NY/CT area avec moi, contact me, s'il vous plait!!! BTW I almost killed myself several times in the last year, and I'm happy to say that right now I'm in a state of apathy so completely solid that suicide is naught more than a passing thought, like almost everything else. Everything else except the music, the art, the film, the words that keep me going... I'll leave you with that thought. PS- Goth does not equal depressed. Maybe for some, but definitely not most, and definitively not me- so back off with the "maybe you should listen to happy music" merde. *smacks forehead* YEA I'm a walking contradiction. That's what happens when you got a doppelganger- durrrrrrrrrrrrr. Ah watevs. Write you some other time. Byeaz!

I REALLY hate it when people underestimate my knowledge and maturity just because I am only sixteen, as if three or four or five years matter oh so very much. I'm not just some silly kid, I am dead serious about my goals, I'm not a genius, I'm not a great student, I'm not the sweetest person, but I am polite, and I do respect others' views, I can only hope they do the same. Enough said.

So November's here! Too bad Halloween only lasts one night! :( *sigh* This is my first blog entry (on this site) I have not checked my myspace in a little while, my profile died, in a sense. My birthday's coming up on the 17th. Seventeen on the seventeenth. I ponder a lot. I imagine it bores people, reading my wandering thoughts as they go on and on... Well, I'm doing what I hate that people do- assuming- I'm assuming I bore people and I'm on the brink of insanity. Either that or it's the immense boredom getting to my head... There's also the fact that there is nothing to do in this dull town... Connecticut's boring! It's safe, relatively, but living in this town is as boring as watching sermons on TV, does anyone actually do that??? That thought scares me... I actually did not know of these religious channels until I stumbled upon them one day whilst looking for the weather channel. I was not pleased. If there are enough people out there watching these things then how come nobody's thought to make a channel that only plays horror movies? Obscure horror movies from all over the world or old horror movies... That would be really nice, sit back and relax, watch some vampire flicks, or watch the corny and *completelly inaccurate* depictions of witches and paganism, which is funny just like other overdone and false stereotypes. I love reading about the occult... Obscure little legends are so much fun, I don't know why, but this kind of thing has always appealed to me, studying about the paranormal and such, it's fun. Alright, I have bored you enough for now. Friendly greetings, gvw/gkc