"good times" some times it seems good things in life are as rare as a virgin rabbit, so when an opertunity rises, go ahead, grab it dont let it pass, beacase if you do it could come back around and bite you in the ass. weather you like it or not, good things come and go so take every chance you got and once you get it dont regret it. theres just somethings we cant pretend and every begining has its end. thats somthing thats destany, why do you think i enjoyed haven my girl next to me...... i remeber sitting in the store rather board, yet i was looking at the girl who i adored. i asked her a question not knowing what the future instored a moment later she said yes and the feeling i had was the very best, she asked if i was sure, that there was lots of other girls but i said forget the rest, she was the girl who i whould invest my love in, she was who i wanted to be kissin and huggin we made anything fun, when a song came on somtimes we sung. when we sat at table we drew with crayons, where ever we went we held hands. when we werent togeather we wrote each other notes, when we togeather we enjoyed sitting on my dock watching all the boats. she said she was so glad she had me, she couldnt wait to introducce me to her family. they took me hiking and it was rather striking how easy they accepted me, it was perfect like it was ment to be. i looked forward to every hug and every kiss, i could never see either of us bringing an end to this.... some times it seems good things in life are as rare as a virgin rabbit, so when an opertunity rises, go ahead, grab it dont let it pass, beacase if you do it could come back around and bite you in the ass. weather you like it or not, good things come and go so take every chance you got and once you get it dont regret it. theres just somethings we cant pretend and every begining has its end. thats somthing thats destany, why do you think i enjoyed haven my girl next to me...... it was shortly after being apart for a while she asked me somthing that tugged on thoughts i could no longer hide and if i told her what she wanted to hear i would have lied. she asked if between us i still felt the same. now she is not to blame for she did not know, but seperate paths is where i wanted to go. it was the hardest thing i had ever done, it will be impossible to forget her because we had so much fun, and there is nothing about it that i regret, the time we had together was a time well spent, but breaking her heart was never my intent, so i just need to show that i do not hate her but that i am thankful for the chance i had to date her so i got out a pen and wrote my thoughts down on paper.... some times it seems good things in life are as rare as a virgin rabbit, so when an opertunity rises, go ahead, grab it dont let it pass, beacase if you do it could come back around and bite you in the ass. weather you like it or not, good things come and go so take every chance you got and once you get it dont regret it. theres just somethings we cant pretend and every begining has its end. thats somthing thats destany, why do you think i enjoyed haven my girl next to me...... so we hugged and said our goodbyes then she looked up at me with tears in her eyes and put a bag in my hand, turned walked away and got into her van. i watched her drive away, hurt because im the reason she cried. i took the bag inside woundering what it was about, i grabbed the bottom turned it upside down and let the contents spill out. the item that was most obvious was the sweater i let her wear, the item that hurt the most was a brown little teddy bear i gave her to show her i care. if only she could have been there, it would have been quite a site to see, to see how sad this actually made me. at first it came across sick and twisted because of

"Suicide Song" its insain//the amount of pain that one man can be delt//if only you fuckers knew how i truely had felt//thinkn i should should just put a loop in this belt and hang myself from the celing//givin to what this fuckn worlds been dealing//cuz i keep shaken this crystal ball but nothings revealing// i look for shit to do but nothings appealing//i cant get out of this depretion// death seems to be my only obsetion// the only thing gettn my attention is this bright shiney knife//so sit back and listen to how i ended my god given life//- it was freshman year// and i thought id have nothing to fear//just pretty women,parties and beer//but it wasnt//instead my life stopped and spun a one eighty//it suddenly seemed the whole world had begun to hate me//the pain just couldnt escape me//mostly kicked and tripped in the halls// pushed into lockers and shoved into walls//kids watching as my self esteem falls// once some one used my cloths to clog the shower drain//it was shit like this thad drove me insain//i found myself on my bed seated//i just couldnt put up with the way i was treated//i resorted to god//make them stop i pleaded//but when i spoke i was never heard// pain is all i ever endured//it was to late, i couldnt be cured//- its insain//the amount of pain that one man can be delt//if only you fuckers knew how i truely had felt//thinkn i should should just put a loob in this belt and hang myself from the celing//givin to what this fuckn worlds been dealing//cuz i keep shaken this crystal ball but nothings revealing// i look for shit to do but nothings appealing//i cant get out of this depretion// death seems to be my only obsetion// the only thing gettn my attention is this bright shiney knife//so sit back and listen to how i ended my god given life//- at home it was just as bad//argueing with my mom and fighting with my dad//they were the worst parents id ever had//i dont understand how they got me//wich dip shit judge allowed them to adopt me//since day one they begun to crop me//but that didnt stop me//i went my own way// and my mom must have thought that if she didnt punish me, it was a blown day//it was like she had come straight from the flames of hell//and her house was a prison cell//i was constantly told i was hatefull and ungratfull//i felt like a pawn//they would always say that they were right and i was wrong//so i dont need to worry about them missing me when im gone//- its insain//the amount of pain that one man can be delt//if only you fuckers knew how i truely had felt//thinkn i should should just put a loob in this belt and hang myself from the celing//givin to what this fuckn worlds been dealing//cuz i keep shaken this crystal ball but nothings revealing// i look for shit to do but nothings appealing//i cant get out of this depretion// death seems to be my only obsetion// the only thing gettn my attention is this bright shiney knife//so sit back and listen to how i ended my god given life//- i realize most suicide notes arent this long//but this isnt a note//its a suicide song//i want you to play it over and over untill its stuck in your head// maby then you will realize your the reason im fuckn dead//you will all be confused//when you see my face on the news// and of course then every one will pretend//that they were my friend//oh what a message that will send//the wold would think i actually had a pretty good life//this idea makes me laugh as sharpen my shiney new knife//i decided to slit wrist//befor i put an end to this// my nuece is almost ready//one more knot, my hands are surprisingly steady//below me blood forms a pool//i watch as the blood drips thinking it cool//untill some one knocks and my foot slips off the stool//-