Well, while I sit here on Wiki, I can't help but acknowledge the bulk of what I want to happen go the complete and utter opposite. I begin to look up Latin Phrases...I run across a few familiars, but the new ones get me to thinking about how much my hopes are always deflected by reality....let me share with you some of the phrases and my real-life responses: Faber est suae quisque fortunae = "Every man is the artisan of his own fortune" ...Well, I can somewhat agree on this one. I've painted my own future before, but the roadblocks and bullshit I put up with always brings me to some ultimate failure. It's almost as if the gods plagued my very thought of flight and instantly I'm drawn ever nearer to the ground. falsus in unum, falsus in omnibus = "False in one thing, false in everything" ...this applies more to the people. The new slogan, Get Real or Get Out! Most of the people I remotely think have something to offer me must see something in me abnormal that keeps them just attached enough to hear me scream, but never to act. No one calls me when I'm down. No one talks to me unless they want something of me...Thats odd...doesnt bother me TOO much, but YES, it bothers me.. flectere si nequeo superos, Achaeronta movebo = "if I cannot move heaven, I will raise hell" ...CLASSIC! This is a phrase I love more than anything, my will power wont die a lick. I done seen some shit and, hell, I'm determined to obtain what I want or die going for it! Well, at least, with most things! lol luctor et emergo = "I struggle and emerge" ...I come to hope that from the losses I have taken, that I rise higher than before. Maybe I believe that the harder the fall, the better the return (something an old man mumbled to me once)! alis grave nil = "nothing is heavy to those who have wings" ...Some claim my problems are small and insignificant...this is my response to them....if you have a job, car, girl/some significant other, you cant tell me I'm wrong to feel a bit slanted because I haven't obtained them? You're not tied down by my restraints...I could not expect you to understand. amor et melle et felle est fecundissmismus = "love is rich with both honey and venom" ...I love this quote because of its many ways to apply in my life. There are certain friends, family members, and other persons who I'd say I love (or remotely have love for), but between the black and white lie the grey. There's always the search for the meaning of the love I have. People who like to tell me how tight we are hurt me sometimes worst than my enemies... beati pauperes spiritu ="Blessed in spirit are the poor" ...This is a great truth, I see more happiness in people with much less...Well, obviously not in this country because the BIG picture flaunts such images of "RICH Happiness" in your face! But I've even taken this attitude! carpe diem = "seize the day" ...I've always wanted this attitude! disce quasi semper victurus vive quasi cras moriturus = "Learn as if always going to live; live as if tomorrow going to die." ...this is a good quote, I obtain knowledge of the past for this very reason, connecting it to the future and learning what mistakes not to make so I can live the day to my maximum yet staying safely within the bounds of my realm! discipuli nostrum bardissimi sunt = "Our students are very stupid" ...this should be the NEW DPS motto! ditat Deus = "God enriches" ...I know His power and I trust in Him to make things better...for there is none more powerful than my God! Docendo disco, scribendo cogito = I learn by teaching, think by writing. ...This is actually me! I want to be a Social Worker for this reason....and not too many of us are any different. Think about it! just a little to think about...and hopefully I've sparked something in your brain...a little bit to think on in the days to come as a

I'm SOO sick of music today...my own SISTER told me she like a song( AN ENTIRE MUSICAL EXPRESSION ) because the dance was easy....if you have heard the cupid shuffle and dont think its stupid...I QUESTION YOUR IQ! Simple and Plain... The SAME now goes for 90% of Lil Wayne's fans..Lil Wayne in MY opinion hasnt said SHIT worth hearing since the Carter...the FIRST one...I'll even go so far as to give the Dedications I and II...but after that, its ALL garbage! And I see him hopping on all these songs with artists I respect! People who argue me down tell me he's cold but can never tell me a real reason why...one person simply put it...Weezy be saying that raw shit that nobody else be on!!!!...I told him in similar vernacular....so do Lupe Fiasco be doing the same thing...and he's a BILLION TIMES better than Wayne's Jay-Z wannabe, Andre 3000 style-stealin, Hot Boy dickriding, Baby dick suckking ass!!! Get off the mans dikk and try some INTELLIGENCE! This is why I do not fare well in the kklub....now yea, I go...and A LOT i might add..and have fun out of this world but I mean...the kklub is NOT where I go to meet women...and note: WOMEN...now I know certain folks that have a GREAT record pulling broads in the kklub! i HAVE TO be intelligent and the kklub puts a kkloak on ALL intelligence so that stupidity can reign supreme... Veering off topikk, I'd love to address the massive amount of ppl I dont talk to that have me labelled as a FRIEND!...umm...since when does a friendship constitute NOT hanging out! Disappearing at any given whem!?! I'm annoyed wit a lot of ppl now...I've tried to be NICE but you don't seem to get it...you must have known the old EVIL cHRIs and liked him...so for you all who need a little tough love...I'ma dish it out...I won't release you, that'd be childish...but don't expect the BRIGHTEST future with our friendship, eh! I don't trust but 3 ppl now...good thing...I'm kkonstantly looking for reasons not to trust ppl now...you fukkers didnt listen when I kkomplained about unreliability...NOW THOU SHALT REAP IT! If my friendship means the jakk shit that you make it damnit...EARN my TRUST BAKK! Now, back to the kklub...its full of wannabe D-boy ass niggas who STAND on the dancefloor and choosy ho's who dont dance with the one who display a bit of couth but would much rather have a man grab them and drag them half way and fix his pelvic region in one area so she may do repetative ass gyrations on his pee pee! Pretty much why I'm a solo dancer and not a really big one on oner.... Why do blakk people get mad at the stereotype that all we do is fuk and make babies when 90% of our music is about SEX....you're ALL stupid...I'm sikk of this race...I wanna be KKLEAR!