Angel Crisis

I did play live in 2003 with the help of some friends who wanted me to get out there...I played at some local pubs in front of mostly friends and a few strangers...needless to say it didnt last too long...Since the musik consists of basic programming and samples...it's kinda difficult to perform live without raising eyebrows and people thinking youre just doing karaoke...lol...but all in all it was a great bloody experience....i was born for music and performance...It just gave me a slight taste of live crowds...... NOW I have this insatiable feeling to get out in front of people and show them what i can do and what you can do when you dream and yearn for something other than the ordinary....The thing i love is the way people see you.....You are no longer just a regular person...you are a performer...you are seen in a total different light....Sometimes hated and sometimes loved...but always something other than the ordinary... I love playing live....It's a perfect opportunity to be someone other than me....It is perfect opportubity for revealing all that is inside of me and to be free and be restrained by what you can and cant do in the public eye... by words.....Being able to get a point across to the masses is not an easy task. The fact that most people are in search of their own thoughts and taste and sometimes their own realities of a another form of reality makes it even harder. i love the challenge of being able to inflict my own emotions unto others. i have always made music my passion. Whether it be consuming it or making it. I live, eat, breathe, and sleep it... The most memorable moment was the day of our first show. The pub was filled with my friends and some strangers.We were the third band and second to last to perform. I was super nervous and almost to the point of crying. So we went up and did our stuff. And the most amazing this was when the whole club FROZE. For 30 minutes, the people were mine. Their eyes were on us.NOT ONE PERSON MOVED TO GET A NEW BEER, OR GO OUTSIDE FOR A CIGARETTE, OR EVEN GET UP TO GO PISS OR SOMETHING...LOL...While the music played and I sang people watched and I can feel their eyes layed on us. It was the biggest RUSh of life and energy my body has ever ever felt. It's like losing all control of the spirit...I found it truely amazing how hypnotized everyone seemed. And the only reason it struck me so much was because during the other bands' performances everyone was very "Ant-like", moving around , chatting with friends,going in and out to smoke, getting up for more beer....But not for us......Stillness and Undivided attention was ours....Its great to know you are appreciated musically and artistically.....I am forever grateful for the opportunity.....and I know deep inside.....ITS NOT OVER YET...someday again it will come to be..and like we say,PATIENCE is a virtue.....The waiting is the hardest....... Its very difficult to make music..Noise is noise but music is something else...It comes from deep within and no matter what circumstances exist I pray that one day I can do it in front of thousands of people.....Soon i hope.....