You are never going to see TikTok videos on television. I guess I’m crazy to think I’m ever gonna be on the radio. Even if I had a million streams it’s only going to be a few thousand. I’ve been putting music on the net since 97 or 98. I’ve paid my dues. Almost all my music has been instrumental. All these years I hardly had any lyrics but now I’m getting a flood. I’ve written almost ten songs in the last 4 days. I write and then I go through my massive catalog of instrumentals and find something that fits. I have to pay to master it. On that over service I might make 8 or 9 dollars for my whole catalog so far. It takes 3.99 to master something so I am still not making any money. Maybe somebody will hear something and cover it idk. Cross my fingers and pray. I’m getting old. I’m worried about what’s going to happen to me in my old age. I don’t want to end up in some backwards nursing home. Anyway thanks for those that are still listening. You are in my prayers. Peace be with you. May all your wishes come true.

Sometimes it takes a while over on that other service and I’m not putting anything over there that doesn’t monetize so there is going to be stuff here that isn’t there. All my music will still be here and you will always hear it here first

Yeah yeah yeah I know

I tried to sing but it sounded like shit so I just did a monotone over it. It’s a lot different from the original and the original is probably a lot better. I’m going to put it here for a few days and see what happens. I’m not distributing it yet. I might have to redo the vocal. Once it has an IRSC that’s it

I have a tendency to piss people off. I don’t know why people are so upset with AI. Playing is just muscle memory. I’d love to actually be able to play, but I just don’t learn that way. I like to create as I go. I was molested as a young teen by a couple that lived down the street and the man died in a car accident and the woman got pregnant. It really screwed me up. I watched the movie Blue Lagoon and I had fantasies. I wanted to experience everything first hand. So I had my “Blue Lagoon with music. I knew I was never going to get married and that I was going to end up alone but there was nothing I could do about it. I got angry at women. For what it’s worth I’m sorry I got angry at women. Please forgive me for it.