Every bodies fussin over whats real or not\ suddenly being gangsta means you have or must get shot\ I neva been stabbed or shot\ consider my trials a musket n getting hit wit bullets the size of rocks\ ima show you real let me rewind this watch\ ima soldier its gonna add up\ even if you could hardly count\ when I was about\ seven home was hectic\ mom n pops always yellin\ im crying digging a hole in my pillow tryna bury my head in\ I knew what was going on pops smoking fire n toppin it off wit heroine\ shit I couldn’t name it\ but I knew what it did to him\ I saw and understood his world but I thought it was my fault I couldn’t penetrate n reach into it\ it wasn’t him borrowin my birthday money n askin what I did wit it\ I notice now what is done and what shouldve been\ im doing me now so I don’t have to worry about what I shouldve been doing or what I could’ve been\ some thought I would be going the direction he was headed in\ but nah im much too focused way too intelligent\ but moms was determined to make it alone n shape a gentleman\ hol up im getting to far ahead\ too much to say God fitted too much wisdom into a little head\ pops eyes bloodshot I was second handing it eyes just a lil red\ almost 8 now theres so much to think about n reflect\ check it at 8 years old\ I was told\ doc said soon I wouldn’t walk neva make it on my own\ I wanted to conquer so even if I couldn’t run a kingdom\ ima sit on a throne\ sit thinking staring like touchdowns im always in da zone\ like challenges satan pushin the stress\ but before I was on earth I studied for the test\ calculations precipitatin determination im just a cut above the rest\ the weight n pain on my shoulders- you would think I have muscles the size of boulders on my neck\ memories neva slip away n you neva forget it\ I thought I needed direction now I know where im headed\ as life moved on\ so did the weakening progression of legs n arms\ but even if I cant fist fight don’t push me im armed\ flamethrowers nines rockets n bombs\ heres a lil peek into my life\ I couldn’t tell you half in 9 consecutive songs\
