Ispired by my sentimental thoughts of all the defeats in my life and my willingness to know when to put down my sword of righteousness to live to fight another day.
Compilation of solo and collaborative works from Studio122 in Watonga, Oklahoma.
Story behind the song
I have been in music for a long time and my only driving motivation is a small slice of mass success and artistic acceptance. I have helped quite a few comrade musicians along in their journeys to success and ultimately, they have achieved it. The stinger of it all is I have never been reciprocated, acknowledged or even credited for the part I've played in their musical successes and it really pains me deep inside that I have given away so much of myself for their greater good and they never once even looked back in my direction or lent me a helping hand when I needed it the most. I feel am now past the "prime age" for acheiving certain musical successes I could have attainted with other's help. I feel I have tried in vain to live out my life's dreams only to be crushed, used and pawned. In the face of massive adversity, we all should know when to listen to that innner-voice inside and just admit our defeats. Sometimes, it's liberating to lose because only once you've lost everything, all you have left is everything to gain. During the beginning passage of the instrumental, it's more of a sentimental reflection of where I've failed in the past. The is a major change in chord and tone where a "chorus" would traditionally be in a normal song and that is representative of the musical words of divine inspiration I keep telling myself that lick the wounds of my battles in life to ensure myself that all was not a loss. In the end, all I have is the dry, cold reality. All good that's left is only in my imagination and self-delusion. In the face of adversity, I must lie to myself to help me through.
