This was only supposed to be a short snippet. I worked it all the way through. Even sang he last few parts. It's a Soliloquy written 2 years ago. Sorta rushed it. Oh well.
Wassup. Nothing much on this end. I'm doing all this for fun and because I don't have much to do over here in Okinawa Japan. I still have a couple months left here on this island. I've been "trying" to do a bunch of my own stuff on my desktop and laptop for some time now. Special thanks to freerapbeats.com because I've gotten alot of beats from there. Other than that... hope you like. If you don't oh well.
Lyrics
I can’t help myself its milking me dry-
I can’t help but to cry-
You say to me no lie-
but it happens from your own eyez-
Somebody tell me why’?-
Why do I wanna die?-
Why Why Why’?-
Will I survive?-
Will I have the will to subside?
I did it all, I tried!
Who the fucks on my side?
How am I gonna move on?
This is lasting way to damn long!
I’m hurt, and didn’t even do wrong?
Oh God! Help me be strong.
I need time by my side-
but it seems as if time already died.
My friends? My foes?
I’m confused-
I don’t know.
I’m blind, but still I strive to go-
I gotta get my anger to show-
It hurts and I don’t wanna feel this no more-
Now what do I have to live for?
I can’t seem to find the exit door?
Father I’m tired.. please, I can’t fight this war-
I beg and I bleed-
but will I succeed?
I still try.. but with only a few good deeds-
More lies?
Please no-
Piss on me, and let me go.
You killed me already you fucken hoe!
I can’t stop beating my head,
I’m alive though my heart is dead-
Shit happens-
You don’t know why,
you don’t know when.
Shit goes on, it happens again and again!-
You feel me? Sincerely?
You tear for me? She left.
She was dear to me. Oh NO!!!!!
It’s gone! Where the hell to?
I’ve been played for a fool!
The bitch is all I know how to do!
Leave me, just walk away like that!
Just remember, TO NEVER COME BACK!
Who is he? Does he fuck you better them me?
Or can he see, what I haven’t been able to see?
Again I ask.. why me?
Go! I don’t want to be in this state!
It’s the damn memories I want to erase!
Everybody need to get off my case!
Now where are my dreams I dreamed to chase?
Where’s my wife my kids..Ooo its Just a waste
A fuck, a suck! For a motherfucken buck?
Who are you now! You claim to tell me the truth,
but still I smell something foul!
What time is it?
Maybe time for me to throw in the towel!.. naw!
you know what? I aint giving up!
I’ve had all of you-
I’ve had enough. Hell yea-
times now for me are rough!
But still I stand tall.
You’ll never make me fall!
Gimme some more-
or is that all?
Its like I say to myself.
day by day. It tough,
but I gotta go the long way!
WHO ARE YOU TO SAY??
And still deep in my heart I want you to stay!
No, cause grief is the pay.
Humble my heart, caress my soul!
Living a gift. Death it’s time to go.
lately, latley missing ya baby
come back to me and ill nake it all right..
i've been missing ya.
just missing ya
eveeytime I close my eyes
I see you
ohh lately, latey i been missing ya...
