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MP3 2.9 MB • 128 kbps • 3:12
Story behind the song
basically i wanted to expand my horizons on the type of songs i wrote about and came across this topic after listening to tupac's "i aint mad atcha". basically the song is about a married man who has a wife and 2 kids. After a fight with his wife, he simply goes out and drinks and drives escalating to his death by car accident. After he dies he meets up with the devil in disguise who shows him what his family is going through because of his death. His wife begins to mourn and sinks into depression and starts cutting her wrists while his kids, because they are young, will never know who he was or how much he loved them. This man expresses sorrow and pain for watching his family after his death and also expresses anger to God or the devil for forcing him to watch them, making him feel as if he is in his own hell.
Lyrics
hook:
so when i close my eyes.... i feel the bite of your pain, girl i apologize.... that i never said i loved you that day never even touched your face, or even muzzled your taste, baby i am to blame for why i am away.... what can i say.....
1st:
dear you, starin in the mirror, while u feel blue,
tell you, that im sorry for what u just been through
into, nothin but a darkness abyss, and ur heart is at risk,
why u carvin ya wrists? u accomplishin this....
oh i long for ya kiss, right. fuckin regrettin leavin our last fight
damn i, didnt even realize the fifth in my stomach, never even flinched when i took it
and the kids how i shook em, deep in their little souls,
never knowin if their daddy's ever comin home
whyd i have to go toe to toe with the flow of a simple life
pushin for our heaven, copped a death from a simple fight
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2nd:
i never expected for me to reach heaven so quickly
but ever since leavin i felt the devil was with me
pretendin to friend me but in the end, showin me a vision of empty
and showin u cryin so many, times, that even i...
teared an eye, feared at times, i missed ya smile
just to feel the high of witnessin ur love and raise my child
i think its vile how god'd do this to a dead man
seein u cry there, forever is my infinite of nightmares
baby dry tears, i wish i could just simply touch you and tell u "ok baby im here"
cant even say my times near, cuz its already long gone and past due
my little angel isnt even past two, cant evn say i had you
imma feel the torture when she answers you "dad who?"
it makes me mad too
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