Lyrics
Used to skate in the youth wasted it too
All the time I had spent to keep from hating you
But now I know that it pays to be callus
And I wasted too many years Trying to find a balance
Of good and bad wrong or right to get fly
My atmosphere’s ambience was too much to fit my
Existence and resistance being proud when called punk
Loud when I was drunk and growled when I got bumped
Or talked down to I was ready to rumble is tempted
or even looked at wrong when I got shook that song
Stopped playing and the dj had canceled my request
Nothing left in this chest but a black heart and remnance
Of charred souls that I took in order to form me
Conformity, my enemy and It took a certain scorn for me
Tore me apart to think of the chances I had that I wasted
Left to live a life depraved of friendship but full of self hatred
I cant think clear enough to get a clear set of mind
I feel tortured to set a goal that will be erased over time
I always thought negatively ever since I was a kid
joked about death, and beat kids up for stupid shit
cuz I can’t deal with problems like a normal person would
I go to doctors and get pills as a crazy person should
Take 3 times a day to get rid of your depression
And don’t take longer than 2 months to assure no obsession
Its too late for that ive been on them for 8 months
I thought I was getting worse but im really going nuts
Shit that sucks I don’t know what to do now
I better get on with life but I don’t even know how
Fuck it I’ll just go on like I always did
Living a crazy life and always doing stupid shit
Going day by day only to live life to the fullest
Till the day I die this is the way I’ll see this
