Summer Night's Dream (Homesick) *remastered*
Remastered this old one from me which reflects on childhood days.
Been into this rap thing for 20 years now, listening and studying more than practicing. At 25 years old, I'm finally making moves. Yeah, it's long over due, but it is all in due time. Listening to my songs and checking out my page, people may get the idea that J Malice is a monster or sicko; couldn't be further from the truth. J Malice has a heart and is willing to bet any amount of wealth that it's bigger than anyone who chooses to come through here. Don't judge a book by it's cover. You have to open the pages and read inside if you really want to know about someone.
Lyrics
Long gone, but ya never fade away/
reminisce about ya every single day to day/
longing for ya back is the only game to play/
wish I posessed the magical power to make ya stay/
but I don't, that power doesn't exist/
now it seems to me like you were nothing but myths/
there long ago, but had to up and then quit/
it ain't the same no more, I've had enough of this sh*t/
why'd you have to leave, why ain't you callin me/
help me understand that it wasn't all a dream/
feel like I'm scarred, psychologically/
out of luck like playing the lottery/
summer nights with a heavenly breeze/
stay in my mind so eloquently/
any secrets at all, could ya tell them to me/
make a return, I'm begging ya please/
it's hard now, too tough to stand straight/
more complications arriving, they can't wait/
dying slow like being cut with a cancer blade/
when the only thing on your shoulders is damn weight/
the forecast has it wrong and that's awful strange/
nothing is capable of stopping the rain/
only thing that keeps me from being opposite sane/
are these memories I cherish, locked in the brain/
what you meant to me, I can't put into words/
worth more than anything in the entire universe/
wishful thinking, my bubble's looking to burst/
everyday is closer to my foot in a hearse/
one-way trip with no turning around/
moving so fast, my wheels are burning the ground/
steady struggling until my true purpose is found/
my happiness, you can be certain it's down/
and for good reason, things aren't the way they were/
I like looking back, but it ends up making me hurt/
playin in the dirt, when my grade was the first/
need you back, there's no mistake in my words/
nostalgia/
it's hard living without ya/
but I'm strapped with memories/
and vivid imageries/
why'd it have to change/
I have no clue/
but I am glad/
that I got to know you/
I want it to be the same again/
times are tough/
every second is closer to another day in the wind
Come back and bring my family members who passed/
my grandad before he got into the crash/
my grandma before cancer was hitting her fast/
and my friends so we can talk some sense in their ass/
everyone else, alot has changed since you left/
I 've got alot of people who's laying in rest/
but floated up to carve their name in the steps/
to Heaven, but I ain't stopped feeling the pain yet/
I wish I could go back to being a kid/
and be with my people and all the things that we did/
hanging out all night and the street wasn't dead/
no school, hide and go seek to no end/
eternity is what the summers seemed to have lasted/
days were easier then packed with scenes of happiness/
goodness feeling could always bring a sequence of laughter/
truly we were deep in the rapture/
but I guess nothing good lasts forever/
why won't the rain stop, when can I past the weather/
you know what I need, don't make the answer "never"/
bow my head down and put my hands together/
if you're listening, I miss those days/
what we've now come to call the old days/
just so ya know, it'll never be okay/
but my heart will never be hard to locate
