Lyrics
[CHORUS]
Abandoned
You got nothing to turn to, no where to run to, no one to hold you.
Abandoned
No one to share your view, No clue know what to do, feel like your life is through.
Abandoned
Now you're feeling low grade, always in the shade, your life you would trade
Abandoned
Into a bomb you are made, and your hearts the grenade, now to black you will fade.
{0:39}
[VERSE 1]
Back in the day, I was a young kid growing up,
got pushed and bullied, punched till i was throwing up,
I tried to avoid them but they always kept showing up,
tried to stay strong, but i felt like i was blowing up.
Going up the street, making my way to middle school,
all the kids would laugh, yeah to them i'm a fool,
I'm was just a tool, just someone they could use,
It would eats me alive, I couldn't stand the abuse!
So take my shoes, and throw dirt in my face,
put my head in a noose, I wish i could erase,
this place, this time, this shit life of mine,
please replace my mind, so i could stop cryin'
WHY!? Is this happening to me?
I don't understand!? I just wanna be free,
I just wanna be with me, in my own zone,
I want privacy so just leave me alone!
[CHORUS REPEATED]
{1:49}
[VERSE 2]
Moving up to high school, I thought everything would change,
I figured they’d all grow out of looking at me strange,
My life I could arrange, no more shadows will I cast,
But little did I know that I can’t escape my past.
So I out-lashed, shout and got bashed,
The jocks picked me up and threw me in the trash,
The whole lunchroom pointed and laughed at me that day
I couldn’t handle it at all, So I had to run away,
But forget going back home and crying to my mom,
cause if she get's involved, she'll be smacked by a palm,
or the back of the hand, that is coming from my dad,
and I can't understand, why this would get him so mad?
but I fear my father's rage and try not to come near it,
because he's drunk as fuck and he doesn't want to hear it,
But fuck that, bull-shit, I cock back, full-clip,
It bucks back, I pulled it, so take that, and have a nice trip.
[CHORUS REPEATED]
{3:00}
[VERSE 3]
Now my father’s dead because I shot him in the head,
I watch his blood run red all over his resting bed.
No longer will he yell, no longer will he hurt me,
no longer will he tell, me that I'm not worthy,
of recieving respect, I'd rather ring his neck,
and all the necks of the kids that ever disrespect-ed me
you'll wish you protect-ed me,connected with me,
see who I could truly be,
But now it's time for me to get my revenge,
it's too late to say sorry or to say your amens,
and now this moments intese, i got the gun in my hand,
now it all makes sence, now i finally understand,
How it feels to stand tall, feels to make em cower,
now i I know how it feels to have the ultimate power,
so i pulled the trigger, but it ain't even me,
i'm caught up in the moment and i can't even see,
all I see is me, staring at this bloody mess,
a result of my hatred that i couldn't supress,
and now I realize this ain't a game like Atari
To all the people that i've hurt, "I'm sorry"
[GUN SHOT]
[FADE OUT]
