Yes, that is infact, me trying to sing.
So, uh, this is a pretty depressing song-- not gunna lie.
AposL is the new age Hip-Hop/Trip-Hop music.
Story behind the song
I wrote this song in the summer of '05 at like 3 o clock in the morning and recorded right after. So I was mad tired and depressed, you can hear it in my voice.
Lyrics
Hook-
Why cant I feel?
Why cant I see?
Why cant I heal?
Why cant I be?
Why cant I feel?
Why cant I see?
Why cant I heal?
Why cant I be?
Verse 1-
As a child, I knew something was wrong with my head
Trying not to end up in a hospital or dead
I've dealt with many things and many things I've seen
Been to Heaven and Hell and anything in between
And in the process, I've been bruised and broken up
But im still rising, not giving a fuck
If, life is a journey, than I'm in 'The Lord Of The Rings'
But I survive it all through the boobey-traps and evil things
Blowing past enemies, make em fall to their knees
Proving wrong, all their shallow 'theories'
And when you walk past me, its always the same
You think I'm no-one, you think that im lame
But have you ever took the time, to ask how I was?
Sometimes I think I'm alone, but I know I'm not cause--
I know there are so many others, just waiting say something
And when they look in the mirror--all they see is nothing.
Hook-
Why cant I feel?
Why cant I see?
Why cant I heal?
Why cant I be?
Why cant I feel?
Why cant I see?
Why cant I heal?
Why cant I be?
Verse 2-
Sometimes I sit down and think about my life
In my right hand is a pen--in the left is a knife
And I'll weigh my options--pros and cons
And I'll think about you, until-it-dawns-on-me
How stitches in time, come back to me,
And replay in my mind just like an old movie
except no-ones in the audience except for me,
wishing i could simply get up and leave
I breathe--but I dont think I'm alive
But trust me, I'll do what it takes to survive
And dominate, this world full of hate,
This world is unstable, just like my mental state
And one day, you'll tell stories to your friends
You'll tell em what we did and how it had to end
Now its too late--but you never did know,
Why you had to leave--and let me go.
Hook-
Why cant I feel?
Why cant I see?
Why cant I heal?
Why cant I be?
Why cant I feel?
Why cant I see?
Why cant I heal?
Why cant I be?
