I was feeling so much after the loss of my mother, then my wife and I lost our first child and everything was blue.
Lyrics
Lately I’ve been going through some things/ going to sleep to cold nights and waking up to bloody days/ my mind feeling like an animal trapped in a cage/ my body feeling like cold steel/ finally searching for the truth for real/ questioning what my beliefs really are/ trying to find my heart even though we both know it’s scared/ looking at my momma’s ashes/ I loved her despite our many clashes/ guess I’ll never know her mental circumstances/ that made her give up on life’s little dances/ maybe she would have been proud that I found love/ the sweetest woman that looks at me like a man instead of a thug/ blue eyes that helps me forget/ all the bull and most of my regrets/ no longer living off of pain and cigarettes/ all though we lost our first child/ it’s because of her that on a good day you can see me smile/ one kiss/ and I can’t help but think that heaven exist/ who knew that love would be this bliss/ it kills me that I almost gave up on this/ so I continue on my journey of self discovery/ I put it in your hands you either hate me/(hate me)/ or you love me/(love me)
