Nothing has looked the same to me
Charred into shades of grey and ember
What used to be blues and greens
Yet how have you taken away
My love and luck from under my feet
Your colors are culling my wings
Has lifted me up to drop me
So I’ll sink and think of it as falling
You’re circling above as I reach out of water
So close in my poisons
in hopes that it drags me under
In hopes that is has me
In hopes for some release from this feeling of flying -
Of dying without wings
I’m tired of doubting that I’ve been trying
So I’ll drink my sins in bleach,
For its familiar taste of bliss
In hopes that it tastes as sweet,
Or if it’s just another trick
Tho my love, my wonder has been fading
out of everything I once thought I wanted
Am I just another fucking pawn with this twisted thread of fate barely hanging on?
So ill sink and think of it as falling
What’s another bottomless pit to fall into?
With poison, spit and vomit
Cue the curtain call and tragic chorus
A final round of applause
Held held down down by your love it’s obvious I fell for it
So sing, praise, say the word and I’m there performing every goddamned line - compelling - convincing you there’s nothing else but this
Ill break my wings to your touch
That I’ve been waiting on
Doesn’t mean a thing that you say it does
Don’t be cruel to me
Because I love you better than anything in the world to be-
Held down for my love for you is
Circling above just out of reach
Like I’m spell bound under something new
is worrisome with an ending that’s not as sweet
So lull me into sin
As convincing as you are has only been a contradiction to me
What good is fate if the only bliss
Is an endless void disguised as holiness
A poisonous filth hidden on your lips
Like some higher power - led me here into your loneliness so I’ve sunken
And thought of it as falling
Predestined - to bleed into your colors
Now I only see the skies as endless -
as the sun rises, but just as empty
So I’ve dosed my blood
in hopes for some
release from this feeling of flying, of dying without wings
