This was one of my first projects after the Pity Whore album was finished. Pity Whore was a couple years in the making and I learned a lot over that span of time as far as music creation, singing, and putting everything together. I decided to use everything I know to give the next album a lot more depth and bigger and better sound. It's going to be more narrative and less introspective. I'm very happy with this song because it is a good example of this.
Lyrics
Once upon a time I knew a boy that couldn’t dance
Or take a chance on anything he was so scared of everything
This boy could never trust himself to breathe to fight to make everything alright
He stood aside and closed his eyes and sighed
This boy was so afraid of giving more than he had ever known
He was the one who’d rather play alone and never leave his home
There was sadness in his eyes being alone feeling so shy
At night he cried inside the bed where he would hide
I want to know what will happen in a world where I can find my place
In the sorrow in the pain
I want to know what will happen in a world where I can set my pace
For the great times and the joy I’ve yet to find
He didn’t know just what to do he tried so hard to be the good boy
Be the one they said was kind would never dare step out of line
But he grew tired in his skin dissatisfied with how he lived
Feeling alone he never spoke just forced a smile again
I want to know what will happen in a world where I can claim my space
In confusion in the haze
I want to know what will happen in a world where I can find my grace
For the justice and the answers I’ve yet to find
This boy still can’t dance but I’m trying hard to find the beat
This boy still can’t love but I’m trying so hard to finally breathe
He still can’t fight but it’s okay because I still won’t step out of line
So many years have passed me by but I’m not growing up any time soon
I want to know what will happen in a world where I can find my peace
If I could let down my guard
I want to know what will happen in a world where I can find release
Of the hard times I have yet to leave behind
