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S. De Bolster / Illuminati Records.
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S. De Bolster / Illuminati Records.
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April 22, 2012
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MP3 3.8 MB • 128 kbps • 4:09
Story behind the song
Written & Performed by S. De Bolster.
Produced by Illuminati Records.
Mixed by S. De Bolster.
Recorded at the "Nothing F*** ing Works"-studio.
© 2002 - S. De Bolster / Illuminati Records.
Lyrics
Dying to survive, it’s like, you never notice what you got until the moment you lose it.
Poetic Flow:
Staring as I see my body laying on the ground
slowly understanding the fact that I drowned in my misery
people are standing around as I’m floating towards heavenly sounds
It’s a weird sensation to see yourself from up above
a cause for irritation
a situation I’ve never even dreamed of
leaving this f***ed up nation
as I’m floating towards the white light surrounded by love
I’m way too young to go
I’m only 21 years old and still got so much to grow
and I still got so much I want to prove
but there’s nothing I can do
Struggling to get back to my cold body
but I’m grabbed by reversed gravity
I never cared much for life
but now I’m hustling to get back to my human cavity
it seems like it had-to-be
I was never meant to make a difference on this f***ed up planet
now I’m out to live underneath a dungeon’s granite
and I can’t even stand the f***ing darkness damn it
I don’t understand this, how did I even die?
5 minutes ago I was still getting high on life
now I’m here floating above my body as I’m headed towards the sky
Come to find out...
our pearly gates is nothing more than a crooked fence
meeting Saint Peter awaiting me in a b-boy stance
saying “Do you want to meet our holy father
or enjoy the devil surrounded by a sulfuric stench?”
No offense, but I want to get back to earth
don’t tell me my birth was just a waste of time
my life a fool’s tale without any worth what so ever
Ok I admit, maybe saying that wasn’t all too clever
but I had to get it off my chest I’m depressed
and don’t want to spend my eternity with St. Peter and the rest
Suddenly a bright light blinds my eye
revealing only a halo and a beard
“Well, what do we have here?”
says a dark heavy voice used to evoking fear
I’m like “Jesus f***ing Christ, I don’t want to be an asshole
I just want to continue to live my life.”
Talking:
Simple as that I started a conversation with God. Telling him my feelings about how I don’t want to leave my family and friends behind. Telling him that it wasn’t my time just yet as I still had so many things left to do. During my speech angels suddenly surrounded me and they started to sing…
Chorus
Poetic Flow:
The angels & St. Peter chose my side as we reasoned for my life
but each plea I made was like a double-edged knife
never the less I didn’t give up and continued to strive
But with each devilish word that fell
I could see myself approaching hell
doing my best not to yell
as I was running out of thoughts to sell
You should’ve seen me
reasoning with God'damn this is harder than I thought it would be
I realized I was talking to a God and had to act accordingly
But f*** it, I want my life back so I stayed on the attack
suddenly I got struck and everything turned black
Voices from afar mumbling out unknown words
confused I try to open my eyes
not sure of where I am or what I’ve heard
then I witnessed a vision so absurd
3 Pair of wondering eyes looking down as I regained conscience
slowly getting up mumbling out absolute nonsense
I don’t understand what happened
it’s too weird for common sense
I got up not knowing what to say
gave a couple of handshakes and walked away
smiling, happy to see another light of day.
So I walked away not knowing what exactly happened, and I heard the angels sing…
Chorus
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