There it was the news you were gone
I didn't believe it, it must be wrong
33, 3 children, things to do
I wanted to deny, but your death was true
There I was in my chair at work
Got an email from your sister, so Outlook was the jerk
Left the buiding and all I did was cry
Yelled in myself how and why...WHY
I try to sleep
But every time I close my eyes
I see your face
And I try to live
But every time I blink
I don't know what it has to give
I feel so scared
I don't know where to hide no more
Your sister thought about me all those years
Now I was contacting her and she cried tears
She typed: It's such an awful thing to say
But I have to tell you...my brother past away
Poland on your way with your new wife
Heading for Estonia a car crash took your life
Countless operations is what your new wife had
While she was expecting your new born lad
I don't wanna weep
But every night I still
Cry myself to sleep
'Cause then I lay awake
Fighting inside myself
Against the ache
O I feel so scared
I feel like I'm going insane
Not only a newborn, but 2 others you left behind
A boy and a girl both beautiful and kind
Your last message to your sis was out of credit, kisses
Her pain is immense, she's still got her wishes
Like that you would have seen how big you really were
You had it all, you were the best, but your feelings in a blur
Greatness comes from within...no need for endeavor
Igor Rest In Peace...you're in our hearts forever
I try to sleep
But all I do is weep
I try to live
Not knowing what is has to give
I feel so scared
Missing all the things that we shared
Though I feel so hollow
With all my love I let you go