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This is just some shit i put together.. remember, it's just a hobby.. so it might not be the best thing you've ever heard, but keep in mind that im just an ordinary guy trying to express my opinions..
Song Info
Genre
Charts
Peak #1,003
Peak in subgenre #513
Rights
2004 D3K4Y Productions.
Uploaded
February 22, 2004
Track Files
MP3
MP3 3.5 MB • 128 kbps • 3:49
Lyrics
I fight dreams wondering what my life means,
Cause this strife seems obscure like looking through white beams,
And this powerful knife gleams, held tight this knife screams,
In this world I learned people are colder than ice cream,
And so this might seem, like an attempt to suicide,
The thoughts run through my mind, but life is do or die,
So much anger, frustration, there’s really no way out,
And all I wanna now do is just scream and shout,
I truly thought in my mind I had this thing figured out,
But now I have questions of what its all about,
I’m so misunderstood that I’m the only one that knows me,
Invisible, ignored, my presence is ghostly,
Mostly when I need someone here by my side,
To put aside their pride, and guide me with stride,
But always in the end, when I need and want to vent,
I release my emotions with my paper and my pen,
[This life I’m abusing it, its some confusing shit,
But I refuse to give, now I’m slowly losing it,
Its hard to see clearly, and life is getting weary,
That’s why I turn to music, its my sanctuary,] 2x
My perception is tainted, created to be desecrated,
And then its dated, so I must hate-it, I’m ill fated,
It’s a part of my past, history in the making,
My body is aching from the beating that I’m taking,
Emotional roller coaster, so much ups and downs,
This world’s out to get me, so I’m almost run-down,
But I’m still surviving, alive and I’m doing well,
Sometimes in my eyes it seems like I’m viewing hell,
People could be so cruel they using me as a tool,
To improve their own lives then step on me like a stool,
When it comes down to me, they really don’t know shit,
Making up notions, they never know my emotions,
One minute they’re my best friend, the next, I don’t know them,
So I lose myself in the music, like eminem,
I ain’t into gangs, don’t call me a scanty thug,
Music is my escape, its always been my anti-drug,
[This life I’m abusing it, its some confusing shit,
But I refuse to give, now I’m slowly losing it,
Its hard to see clearly, and life is getting weary,
That’s why I turn to music, its my sanctuary,] 2x
So many people near me, I wonder if they hear me,
I’m living so dreary, that I formed my own theory,
The world continues spinning, it will never just stop,
Its main and only goal is to see you fall and drop,
See it’s a test of survival, to see what you truly got,
It’s a test to see whose who and then to see whose not,
In this search for myself, I guess I just lost it,
Life is dark and secluded like living in a closet,
I want to just pause it, and set straight my mental state,
But it’s too late, I can’t even carry my own weight,
I’ve become hopeless, trying to learn my own ways,
I’m alone, dazed, already in this grown phase,
I’m not whole since childhood I’ve lost my innocence,
And in a sense, I live in suspense, always on defense,
My minds in disarray, but a smile I portray,
Mind burning, soul yearning, but my body decays.
[This life I’m abusing it, its some confusing shit,
But I refuse to give, now I’m slowly losing it,
Its hard to see clearly, and life is getting weary,
That’s why I turn to music, its my sanctuary,] 2x
