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I get lost as I stare into the dark
And prepare to get a start to get this care from out my heart
But this pressure and this weight that I carry seems to mark
The triggering of my worries and its tearing me apart
Someone clear me of my errors cuz Im weary from the terror
I see clearly in the mirror that I fear being a failure
From the cold expression on my facea026 one that Ive never seen
Waking up, hoping I fall asleep to a better dream
Because I live in a nightmare, my vision is quite clear
But lately ive been living in fright here
Its slowly blinding me, get close beside of me
And feel the frigid breeze of tension thata019s inside of me
I keep it hidden in the chamber of my soul
One day I lost it and from anger it arose
And my conscious left it dangerously exposed
I used the stress and pain the write a banger and it goesa026
What does the future have in store for a n*** s heart?
I feel like im going to war with my inner thoughts
Doubts on the frontline, tragedy and awful crying
Fighting with my self esteem as casulaties are multiplying
I play the sergeant role but truly Ia019m so scared
As my future explodes in this nuclear warfare
And these journalists dona019t seem to have a clue about
The reasoning behind all this madness and this shooting out
Only I know the truth, but even Ia019m confused
Cuz all this self inflicted pain leaves my mind abused
I try to fuse ambition with reality
But negativity is all I vision in this battle scene
They tell me one day that Ia019ll win it all
Plant my flag in the ground and begin to call
On every hope and every dream ive ever written down
But I can hear the busy signal as I hit the dial
I stare at father time, hoping a look would freezea026
Him in his tracks so he could maybe stop to look at me
And maybe give me a second to reflect
But he doesna019t, he keeps moving, hea019s never missed a step
My depression as it sets in is subtle
But I feel it creeping up on me, its splashing through the puddles
As I walk through the rain, and if I wait to long
To throw my umbrella up Ia019ll be drenched in the storm
Flash floods leave me submerged like a submarine
And Ia019ll slowly suffocate as I drown in my own dreams
Or maybe Ia019ll float to the top
Can only hope for a shot, spirit broken or not
I need to go Ia019ll drop and prolly erode from the shock
Looking for opening spots, catching the rope with the knot
Caught from the rescue team trying to rescue me
But I can only save myself, from the stress in mea026
