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Just another cat tryin' to do his thing.
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Peak #254
Peak in subgenre #125
Author
Furis/J-DraGoNz
Uploaded
February 09, 2004
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Story behind the song
Story about our experience with suicide.
Lyrics
Artist(s): Furis & J-DraGoNz
Title: Moment of Suicide
Beat: Unknown
[Hook - Furis]
I use music to escape, i dont roll up a joint/
Many problems in life but suicide's not the choice//1
I use music to escape, i dont roll up a joint/
Many problems in life but suicide's not the choice//2
[Verse 1 - Furis]
My heart beating rapidly, and my head hot/
The knife in my hand, my mind filled with bad thoughts//1
It was held next to my chest/
But i keep forgetting about the rest//2
I dont get why, they abuse you though/
I dont want to see my family hurt an my funeral//3
I would've suicided if it only hurt myself/
But it hurts to see that im hurting someone else//4
My heart took over the fear/
I dropped on my knees and poured all my tears//5
The visions i thought were so realistic/
The details and the images were so vivid//6
But my heart, just burned it/
A simple problem in life is just not worth it//7
I turned away and became a man of love/
I meditated and prayed to the man up above//8
I cant be mad, i cant quit my mother/
My hand clenching the tight grip with the other//9
That night, i brought a feeling so deep/
My eyes close as a tear fell down my cheek//10
Emotions not seeked but yet i couldnt believe/
It wasnt just a dream i sat down on my knees//11
My hands on my thighs, this moment shocked me/
Out of no where, suprised, the anger the stress//12
Pumpin out of you, its just not me/
Not something i would do, for God had saved me//13
Its such a blessing, he was just testing me/
But i learned my lesson, see i always//14
Ignored, I wasnt listening right/
Its like i was reborn, now im livin it right//15
Im writing with this pen as my hearts pouring/
Im inexperienced and a little ignorant//16
I got so much to take and so much to give/
Im only sixteen i got so much to live//17
And kids, dont know what/
They think its better to be grown up//18
Its tough, i got a little taste of it/
I dont love it, got burdens on you like your luggage//19
[Hook - J-DraGoNz]
I use music to escape, i dont roll up a joint/
Many problems in life but suicide's not the choice//1
I use music to escape, i dont roll up a joint/
Many problems in life but suicide's not the choice//2
[Verse 2 - J-DraGoNz]
Thoughts of suicide constantly running through my mind/
Came so close last time, one more step and i would have died//1
All of these feelings inside, i just dont know what to do/
Sadness and anger, im just so confused//2
All the pain i felt inside that night that i tried/
I couldnt handle it, it just wouldnt subside//3
That night, i looked down at my feet/
Standing at the edge of that bridge, i could barely breathe//4
Fear struck me and my thoughts raced through my mind/
Why was i here, that reason i tried to find//5
I stood there, and all i did was cry/
Tears filled my eyes while conceiving about my life//6
The ways i was hurt and the times i was disrespected/ x
Those days i was hated, discriminated and rejected//7
How i never found my place, never found that special someone/
Always struggling alone, how was i supposed to go on//8 x
Cuz life is hard, and i cant do this alone/
My heart is scarred and theres no one that i can depend on//9
Nobody ever looking out for me, im just wandering/
So whats the meaning of my life, im just pondering//10 x
Is there a reason that i exist, a reason i live/
If not, whats the point of my existance when i got nothing to give//11
So many hardships and the roads rough/
I cant deal with this world, enough is enough//12
And so i thought, maybe i should just take my life/
Cuz whats the point of living when your living in strife//13
I tried, but i couldnt imagine myself dead/
Theres gotta be something, some reason why i live//14
But what can it be, i just dont know/
Im so lost in this world, I dont know where to go//15
Im still searching for myself, searching for that reason/
But im so confused, i know i cant trust my feelins//16
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