Ayane mcayane eMCee Ayane
Song Info
Genre
Charts
Peak #6,200
Peak in subgenre #3,417
Author
Ice Beatz..
Rights
iLL-a-Str8-az
Uploaded
January 14, 2004
Track Files
MP3
MP3 4.3 MB • 128 kbps • 0:00
Story behind the song
Umm, i waz jus really depressed an wrote this bout how i felt, NO it aint really happen an i'd never commit suicide...
Lyrics
Daylight will never appear in tha sky again,
I gaspingly breathe the deadly night air in//
Solemnly here wif no friendz around,
Soft music playz intently in tha background//
Those who hated an teased wont be Around,
Ma pathetic presence will be far an bound//
I hate them frustratin me ta this very day,
Neva can believe any of tha sh** they say//
Jus tired of it all, everything needz ta end,
They're liarz who want this life ta spend//
Can't mend it at all now mmm i'm feelin sleepy,
F*** all ya'll who didn't want me to be me//
Right now i lie here listenin ta ma rap cd'z,
repeat over an over yet each time getz slower//
I'm so alone at tha moment an startin ta feel cold,
Ma self asteem getz lower an lower til it foldz//
I mean hell I'll have lotsa peepz at ma funeral,
All ta make sure that i'm dead not eternal//
Well somehow i'm grantin everyone all they wishez,
Hopefully i'll hurt one of these crazy arse b*** ez//
oh yeah an Wha bout ma momz an ma dad?,
Where they at? well, i'm sure they'll be glad//
See they through me out jus a couple monthz ago,
Now I live alone in some ragged abandoned home//
Jus ma cd'z, they car i stole, an some old clothez,
Started up in tha garage I feel I'm almost home//
Even here all i can feel in my every being is pain,
It'z like all of my memoriez are one in tha same//
Why did no one care? why'd they all have to hate?,
Hopefully with ma death there'z someone i'll devistate//
Some soul i'll touch? some life i'll reach?
Since i waz too incapable to do so while i could breathe//
At skewl they hated tore my rep peice by peice,
Antagonized an pissed me off til all ma rage released//
Dontcha think they'd be better off if i were deceased?
I'd give them a reason ta live they life more happily//
Hatin me fer bein who i am cauze i wanna be black,
Jus cauze i have an slight accent an i happen ta love rap//
It'z not like i wanna have really dark skin,
Tha way i am is jus tha way my personality is//
Imma oopz oreo, racist towardz white people,
Not really jus occording ta mom an a few other people//
I'm breathing more slowly now, tha air feelz thinner,
I wonder wha ma family is doin? sittin down eatin dinner?//
Maybe even together now that i'm not there,
There won't be any fightin, i cauzed tha problemz n despair//
They were right when they said life'z never fair,
(cough, cough) buh how about when ur no longer there?//
oh ma gawd wait there'z one person i have ta live for,
Ma baby nephew micheal at home, he'z so adorable//
He'z only five yearz old, he still has more yearz go grow,
How could i leave ma little baby in this werld alone?//
I luv him ta death now he'll live without me?,
How much would this hurt him? would they tell him liez bout me?//
Wha bout me would they make him believe? would they trash me?,
Slash ma name tell him storiez ta make me look horribly?//
Hopefully he'll remember the way i treated him,
Alwayz took care of him tha best way i could then//
I'm startin ta feel light headed ma mindz a lil fuzzy,
What am i doing here? why am i crying over nothing?//
I hated my life but there has ta be hope or something,
I need to start ma life over, i can't breathe now i aint bluffing//
I'm sure i can turn this car off, i made a big mistake,
In so much emotional pain now buh i'm barely awake//
*triez ta sit up*
Damn tha car keyz are outta ma reach.
Tired buh i gotta do it fer ma micheal.
Ugh man i can't now wha have i dun?
Higher powerz I pray ta ya now.
I'm done with life'z cycle time to leave.
But let him know he'll alwayz be with me.
