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Peak #229
Peak in subgenre #113
Author
Explicit
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2003
Uploaded
December 31, 2003
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MP3 4.2 MB • 128 kbps • 0:00
Lyrics
its like im gettin tired of seekin freedom in doom,
so i burnt my fingertips to the print when heatin the spoon,
seemin to lose consciousness from diseases and booze,
can't harness it, my body just needs to be soothed,
my feelings get bruised as my veins turn blue,
shirts covered with cigarette burns and the stains from drool,
drownin in a pool of my own spit and sorrowful thoughts,
thats why i slur when i speak and can hardly talk,
should i pardon remarks as you step on me again,
or get discouraged and malnourished in the tendencies of men,
let my inner person surface and get scared of the light,
the little boy who gave up wasnt prepared for this life,
carry this strife for a second then voice your aggression,
had no father in the city and my choice was dimented,
wishin i had some guidance instead of being annoyed and dependant,
switchin the remnants of my sanity through poisonous lessons,
i guess im destined to swallow this set alone,
and get the real thing by slangin bottles of methadone,
the program has shown to leave the dosages closed,
but its holdin me on, i cant seem to focus at home,
then im on a dangerous roam that passes through death,
so let me pop some pills to counter the after effect,
and i'm in debt, the obstacles keepin grabbin my neck,
its impossible trying to shower in baths of your breath...
given one-sided offers to reject them casually,
im not respected, so why should i respect my family,
my mom is there for me, now this is a true thing,
but she always seems to become a victim of mood swings,
so i sing the same song, i'm sort of pissed still,
if my words don't hit you, i'm sure these fists will,
in a drunken rage to save what my mother had saw,
in jail for 2 days for assault on my brother in law,
comin across as messed up to change your perception,
as maybe relentless, the lazy bum who's too crazy to threaten,
rage in my essence to earn the label you've given me,
eyes bloodshot, and blurry from facing the trickery,
deciet's epiphany in the form of siringes,
the depression peiced inside of me was more than my limit,
internal rivalry image, in a dryed up bloodstream,
when you're hooked, there's no counter to the high that one needs,
i frown through blushed cheeks, drowsy till the months peek,
contemplating suicide and about to run free,
on the ground the scum feeds in groups of forsaken friends,
its either me or them, and i'm just too stupid to make amends,
or so they said, i didnt hold a grudge, i held my head,
trying to progress, flying in a mess of melted flesh,
intense!...all that's left is the main event,
but i'm not ready to express, so in my brain it rests...
i'm a nervous wreck, but its bound to get sunny,
in a motel, sellin percasets to scrounge for rent money,
no laundry service yet, sleepin on a bed of dirty clothes,
the bathroom's broke, it's like they never heard of soap,
the scapegoat for great folks, turnin their curdled nose,
hope will be gone when im burnin my burden's rope,
no joke, i watched as my problems slowly evolved,
noone cares that i'm trying to make the most of these wrongs,
supposed to stay calm, taught to support patience,
the human inside of me got lost in the poor makings,
i feel vacant, i think there oughtta be more maitenance,
i didn't know how i got off on all of my court cases,
18 months probation mixed with random piss tests,
even if i was normal, i couldn't handle this stress,
as cordial as a mortal can be who's short on his knees,
hang another needle on this skin ornament tree,
of course it forced me to drink until the porcelain bleeds,
overflowing puke and saliva as a morbid release,
the corner believes the speech that i'll be back on the streets,
torturing me, i'm not gonna let it happen at least,
i'd rather succeed, instead of gettin in accidents,
and lettin the motions move towards fixin the management,
i should set some goals like you then quickly abandon them,
thinkin maybe when im shav
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