This song is about: The feeling of paranoia that one may experience when embarking on something controversial.
Story behind the song
What inspired this song:
I attend a small group meeting every Sunday. We basically share about our lives and have discussions about the bible. There was one Sunday which I felt a conviction to share something very personal, very controversial, but extremely essential for the well being of the others there. And I remember the paranoia I had, as I was walking to the place. I envisioned the mockery, the judging eyes, the words that dont flow smoothly. It was the plaguing visions that was adding a tremendous burden to me. After the event, nothing bad happened. Everybody was fine and all. So I realised that a lot of times, the negative plaguing visions of the future affects greatly on what we set out to do. On whether we actually do it, or follow through with what we started. So, during those moments, I found it very helpful when I made my heart obey my head. To put away the natural emotional instinct to run away from fear, and replace it with the logical point of, if not now, when?. Hence, courage dont last forever.
Lyrics
Visions 22 May 2009
Lyrics & Tune by Daniel Cheong
Instrumental by Winston Saw
V1
I'm, breaking cold sweat
As I walk on the street
The people passing me
They seem to
Stare back at me
V2
I hear them laughing
Their faces mocking at my name
I feel their judgement weighing me
Weighing me down
To my grave
Pre-chorus 1
But i.. have to do this
Gotta make.. my heart. obey my head
IT's now or never
this chance wont last forever
Cause this visions plaguing me
Chorus
My hands.. are wondering around
Cause i just cannot
Cover my face
My voice breaks in and out
Cause I just don't know, dont know
What to say
V3
Under the drizzling I feel
My heart beat pounding in me
Every step closer I
Think I should,
Turn around and run away
Pre-chorus 2
But Ive gotta to do its
Death to the flesh live for the spirit
It's now or never courage
Don't last forever
Bridge
Cant look in to their eyes
Can't take the stares at my insides
Fumbling confidence
The fall from grace from the sky
Cause this visions are plaguing me
